My mind is seemingly lost much further on the days when I haven’t slept well, and unfortunately, that’s been most days. Including today. So I’m pretty used to writing lists to make sure I don’t forget anything. I’m ok with that being my normal. I like lists. I liked them before I had children and lost my mind.
Today, though, my mind is positively buzzing!! Its still wildly disorganized, but its just going a mile a minute! I have constant chills, haha! I have TONS of things to think about! From the notice of our property taxes, to positive things happening in the lives of my extended family, to all of my appointments this week, to planning our basement project, to my anxiety around my pregnancy, to being hungry, to our upcoming lake trip, to not being ready to age at the end of the month, to stories in the news, to plans we still have to make and map out for summer, to our grocery list, to EVERYTHING ELSE. And thanks to my general brain fog, I’ve likely already forgotten half of the things that my mind has been rolling over all morning long. Lots of nerve wracking stuff, but lots of positives too! And it makes no sense to make a list, because none of it really needs recording, and no one thing goes with another, it seems, haha! The only thing on my mind that really requires any action is planning out the rest of our summer, which is hard without knowing much of Brady’s work schedule for August. The rest of it is either waiting, processing, or daydreaming. Haha! Yet even with such low pressure, I still feel crazy in the head. And sick and tired beside.
So today’s post is just rambly, but that’s really all I have to offer at this point! I keep getting goosebumps because I keep having thoughts and ideas that either freak me out or make me excited. Also, Brady is going to be home fairly soon, so I can explode some of my conversations onto him, haha!
Or maybe when he gets home, I’ll sleep. Hmmm. Both options sound so good…