I had a different blog planned out for today but, to be completely honest, today was sort of a gong show, and I don’t have too much left in me. Not enough emotion or patience or really desire to write something out well. So instead, I will simply tell you that the kids were a special group today. Dekker was probably in trouble more than he was out of it today. Because of his crazy actions that put him in trouble, Laela was freaked of him, and screamed like crazy every time he approached her. It made it hard for him to right his wrong when he couldn’t get near her. And then when she would approach him, he would freak and whine and completely shut down from listening, resulting in further trouble. It was never ending.
Rowan was incredibly user friendly today, which was both wonderfully refreshing, as well as ominous. He was quite so easy because he has slept all day. It sounds great, but I’m a bit nervous for tonight. We never have a problem getting him back to sleep after a night feeding, but he hasn’t slept this much in the day for a while. Nerve wracking. But it was a squishy, cuddly day with him.
Once everyone was napping, I gathered up a ton of the craft stuff and office supplies that was spread out all over the house, and started organizing. It honestly took most of the afternoon, but of course the job spread. So not only do I have all the office supplies tidy and by the desk, but I also have all the craft stuff tubbed, the junk drawer under control, and my bedside table looks great. Its been sooo messy and held so many things for too long. Now, its pretty again. Oh, and I took out a ton of garbage.
I hid from Dekker and Laela until Brady got home. After a day like that, I had a pretty unbelievable headache. We whipped up some leftovers for everyone, and ate all together. Dekker broke a big rule towards the end of the meal and I sent him to his room. I don’t revel in my kids being punished in any way, but I had to laugh. From the dining room, we heard him wailing. He used to just cry, but now he says all kinds of things. Today, he said “Aw, that was sad!” and “I’m super sad!” I had to laugh at his perspective, but I was also incredibly proud of him expressing how he was feeling with words instead of through screaming. We have working towards that for so long!
There wasn’t much time left in the kids day by the time we were done with all the time outs and supper, so they played in the kitchen a bit while Brady and I did the dishes, and then we brought them downstairs to tidy toys up. They did pretty good through that, and we even convinced them to “race” up the stairs and to their room. It was relatively smooth, but I feel completely drained. Which is so strange to me! I’ve felt quite 100%-esque for the last while, and I’m finding myself at a bit of a loss with these feelings! I’m certainly not panicked or even really anxious, which in and of itself is refreshing, but I may be getting my first real taste of the exhaustion that so many moms feel at the end of the day. Interesting…
Tomorrow, the kids and I will venture into the city for Rowans hearing test. I didn’t even think of it, but when we left the hospital so soon after he was born, he didn’t have his newborn auditory screening. Whoops! So we were sent a scheduled appointment for tomorrow afternoon. Luckily, its late enough in the afternoon that Brady will probably be done work and be able to come with us. Also, just this evening, I received the exciting phone call that Dekker’s new glasses are in!!! I told him about it just before supper, and he headed for the door. He’s really excited to get them and wear them and be all fresh and shiny. I’m pretty excited too, honestly. I found them online and just love them more and move every time I go look at them. Just you guys wait!
Sorry about the somewhat angsty post. I love my life exactly as its been given to me, but some days I just get the shivers, and then a headache. The tub can’t come soon enough!