Yesterday, Brady and I worked on our course until about 4:00, and then I completed some laundry. It even got put away.
Today, we’re up for church early (which rarely happens) and the kids are occupied. Solly is reading. Laela is doing sudoku. Dekker is doing a word search. Wavy just finished getting dressed and is helping Rowan do dishes. Brady is doing some research on booster seats, and I’m working on the blog and occasionally helping Laela with her puzzle. She’s in expert level, and she is awesome at it, but something she gets stuck. I felt energy to make granola bars this morning before church, but with dishes still going, I think it would be unnecessarily busy in the kitchen. So it’ll wait. But I can’t tell you the last time I felt motivated to work before church. So I’m loving that.
The day is fairly planned already. Church, then coop for toilet paper (because we’re super out,) and then home for rest time and Cher visiting, and the oatmeal for supper.
This coming week holds a few meetings, an appointment or two, and lots of school practices. And more, but those are off the top of my head. I’m feeling a little overgrown, but I think this next week, I’m going to schedule a hair appointment as well as a leg wax. The hair appointment at least will be a ways off, but as long as its on the books, I’ll feel like some refreshment is coming. I’m also feeling purgy these days, so I may spend some time this coming week getting rid of clutter. I have a couple of boxes in the transit already to donate somewhere, so I’m thinking I’ll add to it and drop it off somewhere later this week.
I don’t know, guys. I feel more capable these days, and I like it. And when I feel less capable, I have the resources I need to manage that. I’m learning where to give myself grace but not feel selfish. I’m learning how to manage the symptoms I have that make me feel anxious. For instance, when I was in the pit of despair (like the albino in The Princess Bride) I would be freezing at the beginning of an anxiety attack. So now, when I’m cold, I get nervous. But I have a heated sweater, and a weighted heating pad for when I take a break. I have cozy warm nordic socks. I have an understanding, loving supportive family. I have implemented a routine that we all manage well, and I think I manage my priorities well, knowing where to cut and where to add. I have a craft I LOVE that helps keep my hands busy when I feel picky. I have what I need, and I’m feeling capable.
PRAISE GOD!
Church is still an hour away and everyone is content and doing well. I know every day won’t feel smooth, but I am grateful for my morning feeling under control and peaceful thus far.