It was so nice to finally be able to share our news with everyone yesterday, and the response on Facebook was overwhelming and just plain awesome! I love that other people, some who I’ve known personally for years, and some just from a distance, are totally psyched and in celebration over our third child 🙂 I know we are sure pleased!
Can I be flat out honest with you guys? Brady and I were more nervous to share this time. For one reason or another, we were scared that lots of people would be less happy for us. I was immediately hurt when some responses weren’t as loving as I’d hoped, or as excited as I thought they should be, but I had to come down from there as fast as I could, because you know what? I’m excited!!! Like, really really excited! So is Brady! Is this is our baby! No one elses. Ours 🙂 And Gods, obviously, since he’s allowed us to be pregnant and carry the responsibility. All I’m trying to say in this is not that I’m disappointed, but that I had to realize that I put a lot of importance on something that isn’t the end all and be all. Everyones opinions don’t matter. Its hard, being a people pleaser, to think that way, because I want people to feel like I feel, and to be happy when I’m happy. Doesn’t everyone want approval, deep down inside? I’d say so! But life moves on. And we are thrilled out of our skin that I am carrying another baby!!!
So many of you were enormous supports through our last pregnancy, I can’t wait until the day comes closer and we can start guessing about baby’s gender and wager on the birth weight and all that fun stuff! Guys, I really really thought I’d know for sure what I was having this time, since my first two pregnancies were sooo opposite, but I have no idea!!! I have some factors that lean certain ways so I think I’ll post about them soon, just for fun, and see if you guys care to wager any guesses. Maybe you know more of those games/wives tales than I do 🙂 But I’m really looking forward to going through another pregnancy on here! I promise, I won’t just focus on that, since its not everyones cup of tea, but as I’m sure you can guess, its kind of a huge part of our lives! Thanks for being excited with us.
*** For those of you reading this, thinking Brady probably hates it when I say WE are pregnant, he doesn’t. He did play a role in this whole thing, obviously, so he is indeed expecting a baby to be born into our lives! Just in a considerably less dramatic and physically painful way, haha! Lucky guy!
The belly is starting, and will likely make its first appearance on here very soon 🙂 Happy 12 weeks, baby Jim!!!
So very soon you`ll be experiencing these lines with baby Jim in mind. . . or baby Jym perhaps! A completely individual parenting experience! How exquisitely exciting.
“Baby Things”
it’s your un-adult-erated
toothless open mouthed smile
the way your little froggy tree trunk legs
kick
how you’ve learned to lean in
toward your spoon
seeing your little lower lip quiver
and two of the tiniest tears trail down your cheeks
the sound of your voice
coming from the other room
slowly
inCREASING
in VOLUME
scream-ering just
for the sheer pleasure of it
then dying away
to a babble of vowels and
tongue induced syllables
filled with L sounds
the way you reach purposefully
and miss completely
flexing your fingers in surprise
that they didn’t do what you wanted
or the way you grab
your own hands
and quickly
draw them to your mouth
simultaneously exploring
the soft wet surfaces
along with the firm tapers and kinks
of your fingers
your “yuck” face whenever you taste something new
the press of your downy head
as you curl sweetly into my shoulder
trusting and limp
your fingers tangled in my shirt
every audible breath
a soothing reassurance of warmth
causing me to press kisses against you
sighing thankfully
that you’re mine
Author: Elisabeth Komae Li
Oh gosh, this is SUCH a fabulous poem!! I have to take it down somewhere. Its sooo accurate! Those things are fabulous, and I can’t wait to go through it all again 🙂 Happy new baby, grandma Willa!!