This week ahead feels a bit like a big one. Brady has a very full work load, and will also be away for a chunk of the weekend. I have to squeeze a few things into our few evenings, and a few things that are already set up. Next week starts with a FULL couple of days as well, so I think I’m just feeling a bit overwhelmed.
I’ve spent the morning, however, sipping a latte and reading to/playing with the kids, while texting a dear friend in between. Its actually been a very nice time! I just miss my husband, and am feeling a bit bummed about how much time we’ll spend apart this week.
The kids and I have had a lot of adorable conversations, which has added to some positivity to my somewhat bleak attitude. Though, as seems to be our theme, we’ve already had some talk of our baby up in heaven.
Laela: When we gettin’ our baby?
Me: You mean baby Theo?
Laela: Ya! When he is coming?
Me: Remember, Laela? Baby Theo died. So he’s with Jesus in heaven. He doesn’t get to come be with us.
Laela: Oh, right. That’s too bad.
Dekker: It is too bad. I was planning on playing with him.
So was I.
So that felt a bit heavy. But as I try to say every time the kids talk about him, I’m really happy they ask, and that we can talk about him so normally. Its good not to be afraid of death, or talking about it. Open lines of communication, always.
All in all, it feels like a bit of a blah day. But I know some of that is up to me, so I have some ideas to break the days up 🙂 Wish me luck on my blah Monday!!