You’ll be seeing this on Saturday, when I’m away from home and preoccupied. A day where I’m up and about, rather than holed up at home, staring at my phone. It seems like a fitting time to let you all know we are navigating our way through yet another miscarriage. It was an earlier one this time, but after trying for so so long, it feels like a real blow.
July 29 – Positive pregnancy test after five consecutive days of spotting.
July 31 – First HCG draw. Got that mean nurse again. I watched a beetle walk across my room while she took my blood. Gag me.
August 1 – HCG results aren’t great. 56. The range of “normal” is HUGE at this point, but what I wouldn’t have given for a couple hundred rather than a measly 56.
August 2 – Second blood draw today. They ALWAYS use the same vein. How long before that vein isn’t my “good” vein anymore? Before this pregnancy, I hadn’t had bloodwork since October, yet that spot in my elbow always aches just a little. I’ve gotta speak up and stop them from using that stupid vein…
August 3 – Man, I’m getting more sensitive. SCENTsitive. This morning, my bedroom smelled like coffee, deep cold, and farts. Now I feel sick. Ugh.
August 4 – Third blood draw. Got a really nice nurse who took time, and even unwrapped and chose different equipment to make it more comfortable for me. My one big fat vein is SO overused, he willingly gave it a break and used a smaller, harder to find, one. All of that being said, Dr. Guselle called me on my drive home about Sunday’s result. It went from 56 to 65. It doesn’t take a genius to know that is not enough. If it keeps going up slowly, it could be a pregnancy in my tubes.
She called this afternoon. HCG at 28. We’re losing the baby. Its not in my tubes, which is “better,” I suppose. But I can’t believe it. Another miscarriage.
August 5 – I’m already spotting.
We are weary and uncertain. We are SO tired of losing babies. Five at home, and four losses. Man. Thats a lot of pregnancies.
Please, Lord, direct our path. We don’t understand.
Oh, I’m so very very sorry Hailey! 😔 Praying God’s peace and love surrounding you and Brady right now! 💕💖
Thank you for praying <3
My poor darlings. My heart aches for you guys. I’m so sorry kids, for all this suffering. I will continue to pray for you. I love you.
Thank you, mom <3
I am so sorry. Losing a baby is very hard. I will be praying for your family. Lots of love