Its been an unreal time of change in our home. In our family. In our life. The last year has been an unreal shakedown. The last few weeks have been on par. And some days, its hard to see past our front door. Our cute purple front door. The one with the big fat threshold that gets in Brady’s way.
A lot has been weighing on us recently. Brady and I are both feeling that nagging to get our obvious big life stuff figured out. But you can’t just fix it. It doesn’t happen that easily. I’m feeling an itch to find a job to we have some income. We are still stable financially, but living out of a lump sum doesn’t provide the longevity we’d all like to have. And it certainly doesn’t cover us on paper to build a house.
Quick recap on house stuff:
We are looking to build a barrier free, universally designed bungalow. Universal design means it is accessible to everyone but it doesn’t look like a hospital. Picture wide doorways, no thresholds, customized kitchen, and a driveway/front walk that go smoothly into the house with no roadblocks. Anyone could live there. We would have ALL fridges, freezers, and laundry on one floor. The entrance wouldn’t be cramped. We’d have a separate shower unit, again barrier-free, for Brady.
We do not qualify because we don’t have proof of permanent income, nor do we have 300K *gulp* to put down upfront.
We will have income, but we can save a small fortune by contracting the build ourselves, which is a pretty huge job on its own, so ideally that would come after.
Building in a few years is feasible, though Brady’s condition will likely not progressively get better and better with age.
At the current point in time, we have two good tax years to show the bank. Very soon, we will not.
The time is NOW.
Yet, as far as we can tell, apparently it is not.
I wish there was a way where our creative ventures could pay for our life. And honestly, I do feel thats the route we may land on over time. Yet its time we don’t have in terms of building our home anytime soon. Its now, or way down the road.
I trust the Lord. As I feel so held back some days, I look around and see we are abundantly loved and cared for. God shows His love through people often – always. We have not been without anything we need. Brady has been showered with gifts of tools and equipment to be able to make his living in a way he loves and is capable of!! I have resources and skill and encouragement to be able to create some things on my own, as well. Our children have books and toys and games and puzzles coming out of every corner. My pantry and chest freezer overflow.
I cannot be wanting anything more.
Truly, in my heart of hearts, I do believe we will move, and things will change for the better. I need to be better with my focus. God knows our plans. And truly, we know some of them! We had some big things in the works behind the scenes where we were definitely answering Gods call, so when everything fell to pieces, they have been on pause. But I do believe our time will come again, and it will not work here. So we wait, not always so patiently, for something to work. The right thing is rarely the easy thing. I am learning endurance like never before.
I trust you, Lord.