Nine? 😬 I don’t even know. I think its nine, so I’m going with it.
Here’s the thing. I skipped Melatonin Monday last week and I don’t have big updates this week either. This isn’t because Rowan has been cast to the side. Its because his behaviour and struggles have changed greatly due to the situation of our family dynamic.
What I can tell you is that Rowan has good days and bad days. Its a hard thing to judge. His bad days seem BAD, but I don’t know if they’re worse than usual, or if I just have a lower tolerance. I’m not sure. We still always close the night off warm and soft and loving, in prayer together.
That being said, Rowan sleepwalks regularly, and while I know he’s safe and cared for, to me it indicates that he is still struggling, even subconsciously.
Last night, for the first time, Rowan walked in his sleep twice. The first time, he knocked on the door, but then didn’t answer when I called to him. He was sitting on the landing by my room, and couldn’t really articulate anything. I started to slowly get him back to his room, and he tripped on the stairs and got really scared. I was holding onto him, so he was safe, but he was scared. I don’t think he woke up, though. I got him back into bed no problem.
Later on, less than five minutes after the lights were out for the night, he knocked again. He was standing all crooked outside the door, whimpering that his legs hurt, and were numb, and that he couldn’t walk. It doesn’t take a genius to read that as exactly what it is. Poor, anxious Rowan. As usual, he was easy to take back to bed, I prayed for him, and he stayed put for the rest of the night.
We will continue working for Rowan’s health and wellness, but if I skip a week here or there, its not because I’m too busy to care about him. Its just hard to know whats what right now.
Thank you for your continued overwhelming support.