The Daily Hailey

I like planning. It makes me excited and happy. However, I know that planning can be bad, sometimes, when you end up wishing time away or missing the “now” moments. That is NOT ideal.

I have also learned in the last year-ish that plans don’t really mean anything. As in, we can plan aaaaall we want, but we have so little control in what is actually going to happen. How many times does something come up and change the plans altogether? SO often!! So, at least for me, plans are more just entertainment for me while I wait for whatever is actually going to happen happens.

Its scary to plan for the baby, as badly as I want to. Its impossible for me to keep my head from going there from time to time. Its that unfortunate place between wanting to plan for her, but feeling so vulnerable when I do actually let myself believe that she’ll come home. So I’ve found a fun way to plan indirectly for her, haha! And its TOTALLY justified!!

As I’ve mentioned before, she is due early July. I leave for a nice long lake holiday towards the end of July. Between her being born and us going to Waskesiu, I want to throw her a little meet and greet party. And by “little,” I mean everyone I know is invited. I know, I know, I’ll have just delivered a baby! Don’t push it, Hailey! But I want to throw that party, so I guess I’d better have it all planned out in advance! The lake is the same story. Its totally doable, but in a normal world, I’d start making lists and getting certain things together maybe 2-3 weeks before we’d leave. Except those 2-3 weeks are going to be FULL with newborn baby stuff, as well as a party! I need to be ORGANIZED!! So, I’m planning!

I was fortunate enough to spend a few hours of this morning with my mom, while the older kids were at school. We talked a little bit about our summer holiday, as they’re joining us out there for the second half of it. I’m SO glad that worked out! I’ve already been having some thoughts of things we CANNOT forget to bring, but things I will never remember right before we leave. For instance, I need to make a little sign to put up on our door so the paper boy doesn’t bang down the door every morning at 8:00am sharp. Things like that. Rowan is officially done in a playpen (lol! He’s huge!) so we need to find an extra mattress or cot or something for him. We’ll need a mattress for our one playpen thats just a bit too hard, so both Solly and Bambina will each have a soft comfy playpen to sleep in. Little things like that. Basics, but things that are out of the ordinary. Eek! I can’t wait for the lake! And to call the little Miss by name!!!

I feel more organized already in planning her party, because I have forced myself to keep my idea buds simple. I am continually coming up with new ideas of cute snacks I could put out, or pretty decor I could make, but MY GOODNESS, I’ll have JUST had a baby! So I’ve pulled back, but I’m not kidding about wanting to have a very real party for her, and I hope many of you lovely people come and meet the baby we’re all anticipating together! I don’t want to talk about details too publicly yet, because frankly, this party does depend on her being born and coming home :/ As harsh as it sounds, thats just less confident at the moment, whereas as our lake trip will happen regardless. Sorry :/ I know its all kind of depressing to talk about, but its just reality. So I’ll probably plan the baby party slightly more behind closed doors 😉 and thats ok! Talk to me about it in person or through messages, I’d be MORE than happy to talk about it!!! Just not here, where its more vulnerable to all of you silent followers that I know are there but can’t identify 😉 You’re invited, too, by the way.

After a lovely morning spend with one of my FAVORITE women of all time, I’m spending nap time up in my bed while my three little nappers actually nap! We’ll all load up for Dekker soon enough, but until then, rest is on the agenda! And then a LONG evening of catching up on the Bachelor is ahead!!