Its possible this week has been one of the biggest weeks in the history of weeks, and its only Wednesday.
Ok, this is obviously a lie. Surgery week was bigger. But this is surgeversary week, so thats part of this weeks dynamic, too!
The week has been loaded with appointments. Commitments. Activities. Phone calls. Forms. School stuff to remember. Its been loaded with memories, good and bad, and a LOT of physical body memory that is really fighting against me. My body is just itching to have a panic attack, I can feel it most every evening. Add on top of all these life things some extra emotional running around that is pulling hard on my already exhausted brain and heart. I’m functioning, and I’m ok, but I’m definitely not doing great. And there is still more to come.
I had plans for a pretty cute post to be up this afternoon, after some appointments, but I am WAY too overwhelmed to write it all out this afternoon. Hopefully tomorrow, I’ll have a bit more headspace for it. After my morning appointment. Yet another appointment.
Its going to slow down soon. Its just this week. I know more will come up, but the days of constant “one on top of the other” will soon be done. Aaaaany minute now.