The Daily Hailey

It really worked in my favor yesterday that I had a post in mind already, because posting about the day was out of the question. Yesterday may have been one of the hardest parenting days I’ve ever had. Top five, for sure, and I’m not exaggerating. It was just TOUGH. Very much a day spent “in the trenches” of motherhood. 

Everything fell apart on a particularly annoying day, where Brady was feeling very behind at work and was not readily available for a phone call when I was at my breaking point. I know I could have called, and of course he would’ve answered and helped me calm down, but I also respect him and his work very much, and didn’t want to interfere. I’d survived hard days before, and could again. But it was close. I was in awful shape. The two oldest had been invited out for a little bit in the morning, and they came home as the little boys were going down for their nap. It was obvious there was tension in the house, and I was so on edge. I was determined to cool off and be a bit more chill for them, but they were SO exhausted from their morning. None of us were firing on all cylinders, and we were all at each other. Dekker finally slumped in his chair at the table and said he thought he could use a rest. He is SO mature to know what he needs and when! Laela didn’t want anything to do with a nap, but then she screamed at me for giving her a granola bar with ONLY ONE SPRINKLE ON IT!!!! Sooooo she went down for a nap, too. Once they were all down, Waverly was ready to hit the sack. And then I was. 

I lay in bed, worked on a project for a bit, but eventually just settled in to rest my head and watch some YouTube. After a while, my mom called to ask me a question about a regular life thing, and poor mom, I just unloaded. She listened so lovingly, and when I was finally done, she asked if she could come over. She understands well how valuable it is, having another person around as a buffer. I jumped at her offer, and she was over maybe ten minutes later. 

The afternoon was so much more pleasant than the morning had been, largely do to her company <3 They love my mom so much, and feel so familiar and safe with her. It really shows, and makes a difference. 

Brady was home soon, and mom left shortly after he arrived. I felt so cared for, having people step in on a day where it was SO needed. Brady fed the kids supper and I hid upstairs a bit more. We ate a yummier supper together after the kids went to bed. 

Last night was a bad night. I was so exhausted, but so anxious from the days events, I hardly slept before 5am. Then I woke around 7am to thunder, which was beautiful, but exhausting. I dozed/blinked time by for the next while and suddenly WOKE in a panic, thinking the thunder was footsteps approaching my house. I needed to be up, for my plans, and my kids!! Gah!

I was feeling a bit gun shy about getting the kids up after such a hard day yesterday, but it needed to be done. So I did, and they were in good shape first off. That helped. It also helped that I knew Cher was coming over in the morning. 

And of course, she came bearing coffee and a breakfast sandwich. Because she knew I needed a pick me up. And it really worked. There was still some struggle today, but it was far less than yesterday’s struggle. What a huge relief. 

I’m so thankful to have people in my life who are willing to help me, and love me, even when things aren’t glamorous, or even a little bit smooth. I really needed the moral support, the listening ears, and the unconditional love. Thank you, mom, for coming yesterday when I was in shambles, and for taking Dekker and Laela for a visit today. Thank you, Cher, for breakfast, your unwavering support, and your lack of judgement. I really needed all of those things. 

I know how fortunate I am to have who I have on my team. Not everyone has the community of people I am, and for them, I thank the Lord.