The Daily Hailey

Brady has had these silly lulls in his work that have kind of stressed us out. We’re fine financially, but these last few months would have been the ideal time to make as much extra as possible, and we have not been in a position to do so. I praise the Lord for knowing more than us, because it is always during these lulls that it turns out that I really really need him around. This week is no exception. He has a few days off and it seems like my body is taking that as an invitation to try to kill me, because it knows my kids have someone to care for them.

Today, my sore throat has turned into that deep, gross cough that sounds SO bad and feels worse. Its about hacking up something that you have to work SO hard for, and its just super nasty. Because I’m me, and in the position I’m in, every single hacking fit makes me very very dizzy, and then follows up with a contraction. Every. Single. One. Now if you know much about my birthing history, you know I don’t usually have much pain with my contractions, even well into labour. Only once my water breaks do I feel pain, and then BOOM!, do I ever feel it! But that being said, the contractions I’m having now are also not painful per se, but they are still contractions. My stomach becomes hard as a rock, and because I have quite so much stomach now, it makes it hard to breathe. Struggling to breathe motivates, you guessed it!, a coughing fit. Its been a vicious cycle today. I don’t know what I’d do if Brady was at work these days. I’m full on narcoleptic, it seems. I accidentally nap all over the place. I’m dizzy when I stand. Getting to the bathroom is a lot of effort.

I hate feeling this way. I’m SO excited to have this baby in my arms so my heath can start coming back. I really truly think, as crazy as it sounds, that baby #4 being born will bring some very real normalcy to our life again. I cannot WAIT to see him! He will make all of this worth while, I’m positive <3