… or lack there of.

I should actually say, this post is about our current sleep “routine.” I was going to write this post first thing in the morning when it was fresh in my mind, but our internet has been out all day. Its finally back up and running, so here I am now anyway.

We had this great week-ish long stretch of Rowan sleeping through the night. He just needed to be a bit warmer, so we warmed the place up a bit, and he was sleeping through. Now, in the last few days, he’s taken a jump on his morning poop, and has decided to take of it around 4:00am. At first, we didn’t know it was a poop situation. He woke up and chatted for a bit, which was fine. We waited for him to just chat himself back to sleep. Around 4:30 he got a bit louder, so we checked on him and of course, he had pooped. Once he was changed, we’d lay him down, and he’d fuss like crazy! So we’d give him milk and he’d go back. Normal baby, right?

This is the thing. Our kids are usually very much sleeping through the night at this point. Its been different with Rowan because of his reflux, and the fact that he’d only ever drink milk in the night. If he woke up, we’d feed him, because it was the only time he’d take it. Reversing it is SO hard!!! I know the whole sleep training subject can get touchy, so let’s all just keep our opposing opinions to ourselves, if we can help it 😉 That being said, though, I am 100% in support of sleep training, because this SUCKS. Lol!

This morning was the same story. Chatting at 4:00, pooping at 4:30, and crying soon after. Now I KNOW that Ro is more than capable of sleeping through the night, and that he isn’t starving or miserable, because when he does sleep through, he doesn’t wake up wailing for food at all. So I’m confident he is just wanting to be soothed to sleep. So this morning, we let him cry.

And cry he did. I was wide awake listening to him struggle and fight until about 5:45am when he finally gave in. And when he did finally stop crying, I heard the big kids moving around. Now my Dekker and Laela don’t usually even lull until maybe 8:00, so Ro has definitely woke them. I looked at the monitor and Deks was STANDING on his bed. Suuuper unimpressed with this situation, I whispered into the monitor for him to go back to sleep, and after a reminder or two, he did. Of course, my talking into monitor woke Laela so I had to fix that too. I’m SO thankful that everyone went back to sleep, because that meant I could do. But what a crazy broken morning!

So tonight, we are moving Rowan out of our room for the night. Its just a trial run, but again, we’ve never had a kid in our room this long, and we’re about ready to be done. There aren’t too many options of where to move him here, so our only option is to put him in another chilly room and run another space heater, which will yet again load up our energy bill. Ugh. But its got to get done! This kid has got to get sleeping through the night. If not for his silly reflux issue, I think this would have happened long ago!

So the baby is moved, the monitor is set up, and we are ready to go for round #2! Wish us luck!!!

Thank you SO MUCH for the outpouring of love and excitement on yesterdays post!! We are SO thrilled about the upcoming handful of months, and its fun to have so many other people pumped with us! Its funny how it took a bit of workup for me to be ready to share the news publicly, yet the reaction made me wish we had shared it sooner. I was originally just waiting for the news to be completely official, which it has been for some time now. Papers are signed, money is in, we’re ready to go! I honestly think it took extra time just because it hasn’t fully sunk in on our end yet! We’ve dreamed about this for a solid few years, and its so surreal to think this is actually happening! So THANK YOU for being excited along with us! I hope the topic of home building interests you guys as much as it does me, because that will likely come up a lot over the next little while. That and the rest of our life, plus the pregnancy should keep the days feeling full!

The vast majority of outings recently have been errands, picking out house details, going to meetings, etc. We have still made it out to my parents once in a while just for a visit, but those of you who are close to us know we’re pretty “one track” these days. However, today, I took the kids to Kims place for a play date. Just a normal afternoon of playing toys, chatting, and catching back up. Its been a long time since we’ve had such a day, and it was wonderful!! Of course, my stupid blog is insisting on loading the pictures up sideways, so I can’t actually post any. *sigh* But they played beautifully together!! They all interacted so smoothly with each other, and you can tell everyone’s grown up a bit since the last time they were all together. Their youngest is shuffling along furniture, while Rowan was suddenly pulling up all over the place! He’s only pulled up a few times before, but he tries SO hard at our place. However, 0ur current place is hardwood, and therefore very slippery, so I think he’s a bit shy to really give ‘er and pull. But he was loving the safety of the carpet, and pulled up probably a solid 20 ten or fifteen times in Kims basement. The kids ate lots, and even had a little restful tv time. Both of the babes took turns napping, and Kim and I enjoyed some coffee and a lot of visiting. It was so comfortable. I loved it.

The kids, specifically Dekker, were very sad to leave to go home, but I assured them we needed to go see daddy, which helped a little. All three of them were asleep within minutes of starting the drive, and therefore, I enjoyed a very quiet drive home. It was a lovely, relaxed way to end the afternoon of fun.

Love you and your sweeties, Kim! Thanks for the lovely day of play, and the tuna melts. You know me too well.

I know my posts get boring when I’m keeping secrets. I apologize for that, but if you think about it, it actually makes a lot of sense! When I can’t tell you what I’m doing all day, its hard to recap it for you beyond “we ran errands” or “we’re all super tired.” Both statements are true, of course, and I have NEVER flat out lied on here. I’ve just been vague, but I probably don’t have to tell you that.

All of that said, I’m incredibly impatient in this case and its about time I shared our news! My gosh, tis the time of life for NEWS! First the house sale, and the pregnancy, and now this!!!

Our home build is ON!!!

We took the kids to our lot for a bit of a family “ground breaking,” so to speak, before the diggers get their crack at it. My mom was more than willing to come and take pictures of us while we did so. It was a funny but incredible celebration. We like to do things our own strange way 🙂

So this should shed some light on the last few “boring” weeks we’ve had. We have been going to meetings, signing a lot of big, scary documents, learning the ropes and details of a build, the list goes on. The best part so far has obviously been choosing all of the details that our home will be made up of. Flooring, lights, cabinets, appliances, etc. Lots to decide, and a lot of work, but SUCH exciting work! On nights where we need an outing, we just go wander home stores and dream. But the dreams are very different now. Less “one day” ish and much more “Is this truly what we want?” ish. Its been a complete blast!!! I’ll show you pictures of that another night soon, because we have a decent amount of pictures from the last little while that I’ve had to keep from everyone, but that’ll work for another day.

Today, we broke ground. Hopefully the contractors aren’t too far behind! Though I doubt they’ll be as cute as our little diggers.

Eeeeeeek!!!

THIS is why I love my husband so much. THIS. Right here.

The oil needed changing in the van. We had hoped for a warmer day, but its a bit chillier out than was ideal, so Brady figured he’d just duck out on his own for an hour and get it done. But then Dekker asked to come help, and of course, Laela will not be left out of anything. And this rockstar dad over here proceeds to bundle the kids up in all of their gear, and bring them out for the oil change. It definitely didn’t go any faster than usual, but that is beside the point. I LOVE that they were welcome to go out and work on the car with him. So many kids miss out on stuff like this.

The moral of the story is that Brady is a rockstar and my kids are completely adorable and are growing up to be handy and helpful! I love my family!

Its been a bit of a whirlwindy day, one that I won’t get into very much. This morning went from some relaxed plans to being an incredible headache and very very stressful with lots of running around. We hoped for a quite home day with naps all around, but instead, we were out until mid afternoon and while the kids definitely needed naps, they couldn’t have them. Rowan could, but not the big ones. So we worked through the afternoon, but I finally broke. You all know I’ve struggled here, but I haven’t had a good solid breakdown. Well, I did today. It wasn’t even too epic of a melt down, but it happened. I cried and could barely get off of the couch.

So I’m hiding out a little bit. Yes, I’m hiding from my kids. But they’re doing better. Once in a while, one of them makes their way downstairs, gives me a hug and kiss, tells me they love me, and then go back upstairs. I can tell they have strict instructions from Brady not to stay too long, which is actually nice right now. Little doses of love are welcomed.

I’m anticipating my leftover Montanas pasta for supper tonight, and then when the kids go down, Jerilee is coming for the evening, which is going to be SO great! We picked up a yummy dessert/snack this afternoon amidst our errands and panic, so that and the Bachelor should make for an enjoyable and low pressure evening.

On a really positive note, Rowan has now slept through the night twice in a row! Our current bedroom is ICY cold, and we’ve been running a space heater for our first few hours into the night to heat the place up. But the last two nights, we’ve forgotten to shut it off, and he’s slept through. So I think he’s waking up because he’s cold!! So I found him some fleecy sleepers this afternoon, and we discovered the heating vents in our room are closed. Sigh. I know, we should have checked those first. We didn’t think. We’ve had enough going on that no ones brains are working quite right around here. But hopefully we’ve set things up to keep Rowan happy and settled through his nights. How wonderful would that be? Full nights of sleep would really be perfect at this point in time. We could all benefit from a bit of rest around here.

Kim and I planned to meet for coffee this morning. She had a dental appointment, and figured she’d shop a little bit afterwards, so I invited myself along for coffee and a shop. Of course, my fabulous son FINALLY slept thru the night, and with that, our guaranteed alarm system did NOT go off. So Brady and I woke up about five minutes before I was hoping to leave. He woke me, threw on the lights, and being the rockstar that he is, he rushed upstairs to start the van for me while I scrambled into (yesterdays) clothes and dug a purse out of a rubbermaid tub.

Miraculously, I arrived at the mall right around when I expected to! Kim beat me there, but I knew she would. We grabbed some Starbucks drinks and each snagged a yummy breakfast treat before we found some cozy chairs to settle into for a while. We ended up doing a quick little gift exchange, even! I hadn’t gotten her her Christmas gift yet, and she had recently bought me a BEAUTIFUL coral mug from Starbucks that I’ve been whining about for the last couple of weeks, wanting it so much but not being able to justify spending the money on it. I love you, Kim. Coral mug or not 😉 Once we had finished our coffees and treats, the mall had opened, and we began a slow meander through the stores.

I’ve been working pretty hard not to shop, but we wandered into a store that has this cheap pair of boots that I’ve been eyeing since before Christmas. With it being halfway through winter, and being a SUPER cheap store, I went to check their price, and they were on for 2/$30, which is amazing!! They only had two pairs left, and they fit! I went to the front and asked if they would sell me the one pair for $15 instead. I’ve learned that some places will do this for you if you only ask! So I asked, and she said no. So I asked what the sale price was if I were to just buy the one pair. Her answer? $45. UNBELIEVABLE!!!! I was ticked, and left them there. We did some more walking and a little bit more shopping, but mostly just visiting and catching back up. Its been sooooo long! I did end up buying some crackers and such for Rowan, as he’s running out of a few of his staple snacks. I also bought a foundation (mine is juuust about gone) and I found a little pink glittery nail polish by the brand “Layla Cosmetics!” Go figure, right? Anyway, I thought it would be a cute Valentine’s Day gift for Laela, and the fact that it was a cheap little clearance product helped too.

Our date did have to end at some point, so I drove Kim to her vehicle and we said goodbye. Hopefully we’ll play date next week again. No more of this “once a month” garbage. I picked up some Tims for the hubs and I, and headed home to my family. It was nice to see them after being away for a little break. Fresh eyes. Everyone appreciates everyone more.

It was a great morning <3

We’ve had a weird system out here that we are working desperately to get out of. It seems like we all do ok one day, and the next day we go a little crazy. I don’t just mean like stir crazy, cabin feverish. I mean crazy. The kids are incredibly off their game, complaining and picking fights all day, and I struggle to keep my temper with them and react calmly all day. Its a challenge, obviously. Then Brady gets home to us, and he tries SO HARD to be that breath of fresh air for us, but its obvious that he’s tired and sore and entering a stressful situation, so he definitely has to try to work thru that all as well. Its been an interesting few weeks, and I really really hope we get out of our funk soon.

That being said, today was an “off” day. Granted, we were out and about and the kids loved the outing, but every time we would return to the van, or I’d call them on something small, they would MELT DOWN. My gosh, it was so tough. When we got home, they fought and fought. Each other, us, everything was a fight. I sat at the table and had to ride Laela to eat every single bite. As in I think she maybe took her first three bites of supper willingly. The rest of them, I had to talk her sternly through. It just wasn’t their day.

In the evening, we decided to all haul downstairs and watch a bit of tv. We haven’t watched much tv since we got here, and I’ve been curious to see how that will go. I think part of their transition has been figuring that out as well. Our kids don’t specifically watch much tv, but its often on in the background. They rarely pay attention to it, but they’re used to the background noise, and the ability to use the tv to zone and rest once in a while. So right now, tv is special. They were so excited to go watch something before bed, but as soon as it was on, they were running circles, running back up and down the stairs, being super loud, playing, and as usual, not paying attention to it whatsoever! Haha! I don’t know whats so golden about that background noise, but its apparently enough to make everyone’s day!

Then it was time to start getting ready for bed and everyone – you guessed it – melted down. So they were tucked away nice and early 🙂 Now, a delicious supper for Brady and I awaits, and some hot tub time, hopefully! I anticipate a gentle wind down after a big day, and a fun morning coffee date tomorrow with my girl, Kim, whom I haven’t seen in a MONTH! Insane. And not ok. Never again. I hope to never ever be this busy and stressed out ever again.

** Lastly, on the note of being super stressed out, you know those awful mouth sores you get when your stress level is through the roof? Well they’re completely new to me, and they HURT!!!! Whats the cure, guys?? Just salt water and/or scope rinses? Anything else? They need to leeeeeave!

I’ve been anticipating today after our exciting news yesterday. We really wanted to take the kids out for supper in celebration of finding out the baby’s gender, and all of the excitement to come. Firstly, however, we needed to visit Dr. Mike.

Neither Brady or I have seen Dr. Mike since around Christmas, and we both really really needed to. Brady went first and cracked like crazy. He said he felt amazing immediately afterwards, and still does. I told him how much worse my leg has been, and that I’m at a total loss with it. He did my treatment, paying special attention to that blasted leg, and then we talked about more that I can do to help myself out. Yes, I do still plan to seek out a physiotherapist, but in the meantime, I’m so thankful he had exercises and advice for me! I have to say, I’m not exactly looking enormously pregnant yet. Definitely some, but nothing too crazy. However, my centre of gravity is waaay off already!!! I wants me to do squats, and he made me do them until I got them perfect. Let me tell you, not only am I mildly self conscious squatting directly beside a man who is there to critique me, but also, I’m wildly out of shape, and squatting ten times before getting it right took the wind out of me!! But he assured me that squats are one good way to strengthen some muscles that “need some fixing up,” as he so politely put it. Basically, I’m out of shape. I’m allowed to be, but its doing me in. I hope they work for me. He also mentioned that I need to “sit actively.” I understand this, definitely, but its like someone saying I should never ever relax. Ever. I don’t love the idea of actively sitting for the next 20 weeks, but I guess thats what I’ve got! I’ll do whatever needs to be done if it means I can still be walking at the end of the day. All in all, I had a super informative appointment, and am pretty sore now. Serves me right for waiting so long in between appointments. Especially when we moved and I was quite so bad off! My bad, my bad.

Once we were done at Dr. Mikes, we headed to Montana’s for supper. Kids eat free on Tuesdays! We ate SO MUCH! It was so delicious! We usually just eat get our meal, but we treated ourselves to a started of fried pickles, which were unbelievable, as always. Brady got his burger, I got my pasta, Deks and Laela got their grilled cheese and fries, and Rowan got the baby plate of mashed potatoes and broccoli, which he loved. It was delicious and successful and really, really nice. It was a good day to celebrate 😀

The big ones were a little bit sad when they had to go to bed, but we made it fun and they recovered and did fine. Rowan is SO ready for bed, but he’s actually taking his milk really well right now, mostly because he’s practically sleeping through it, so we’re feeding him as much as possible!! And then to the hot tub!! To rest our achy selves, and just to relax. Because its nice.

And tomorrow will be nice too 🙂

I really enjoyed how many people offered up their guesses on our baby’s gender! It was fun hearing people’s reasoning, whether they had any or not, and just to see people participate in something that is so exciting for Brady and I and our family!! In case you didn’t tally it up yourself, twice as many people were guessing girls than who were guessing boys. Like it was pretty much exactly 2-1. For the first while, it was pretty evenly split down the middle, but it didn’t last long. Thanks for playing, either way.

I drank my water and lemonade all within good time, and I wasn’t miserable or even super uncomfortable while I waited for my name to be called at the clinic. We hauled our little crew back there, and our tech began taking her pictures and measurements and such. I’ll be honest and say that our tech was possibly the most impersonal one we’ve ever had in our journey to have babies, so while she took pictures for 5-10 minutes, she showed us the baby for less than two. It was very very quick, and without any detail whatsoever. I don’t know if baby is measuring to date, or what the heart rate was even. It was strange. She asked us right in the beginning if we’d want to know the gender, and we said if at all possible, yes, we would love to. Our short tour of the baby did not include the goods, however. The moment she had showed us head to feet, she shut everything down. I asked “So was the baby’s gender not visible today?” And she answered back to me,

“The baby is a boy.”

Eeeeek!!!

She exited soon after, and our little family celebrated and mulled and talked about it on our own for a minute or two. Dekker’s first question was “Whats his name?” while Laela just impatiently asked “Baby come? Baby come?” Rowan flapped. We are SO thrilled with our news, regardless of how it was delivered. She didn’t have to care, lol! But we sure do!!!

She brought a radiologist back with her, and he wanted to do a quick double check on a few things he hadn’t liked the pictures of so much, but upon his seeing things firsthand, he confirmed that all looked well after all, and I agreed with him that its always smart to double check. I wasn’t panicked. He is fine. HE.

We were sent on our way, and had hoped to do something a little bit celebratory. We’ve recently learned that Fuddruckers is having a “kids eat free” event, so we thought maybe we’d hit that up, but one of the bunch was NOT feeling it, helping the rest of us quickly realize that today was not the day for it. Maybe tomorrow, we decided. Instead, we made a quick stop at Walmart for a thing or two, and we got some yummy sugar cookies that were covered in blue icing and sprinkles for a treat.

Supper was chicken fingers and french fries, though Brady and I switched it up a bit and had poutine. Once the meal was over, we explained our plan to the kids. We said we were going to eat a cookie and watch ONE episode of tv, then come back up, tidy toys and go to bed. All of this needed to be done without complaining. And you know what? They did pretty darn good! They were sad when the episode was over, but they tidied like champs without any whining.

They LOVED their cookies, and I’m fairly certain they are going to love their new brother even more than a delicious sugar cookie. At least I hope so!!!

We cannot wait to get our next little bundle into our home, and into our arms. Well, we can wait for him, but we eagerly anticipate him!!!!

Little boy, your family loves you so much already!

How in the world is it already time for my 20 week anatomy scan??? It is amazing to me how fast time has gone this pregnancy, but it sure helps a lot when so many other things are going on! Seven weeks ago, our house sold. Seven weeks. Almost. Its been pretty much super insane since then. I remember announcing our pregnancy and the sale of our house in the same post. And now, here we are, suddenly, ready to see that growing baby in my womb again!!!

So my question to YOU is “pink or blue?” Oh hey, I rhymed! Go me!

To compare pregnancies, its probably been the closest to Dekker’s, but with that unbelievable leg pain that is new. Not new new. I’ve had it in all of my pregnancies, but its by far the most severe its ever been, and come on the fastest. I was only nauseousish (thats a really hard word to say) for about nine weeks, and even then, it was a pretty gentle morning sickness. I’ve been dizzy, same as always, and considerably LESS snacky. The one big difference from this pregnancy is that I have SO MANY ZITS! Its common for me to break out pretty significantly in the first trimester while my hormones rage and get accustomed to their new little parasitic friend, but I have never had it like this. I don’t want to pain too vile of a mental picture, but they are not only in clusters on my face and under my chin, but they are all over my shoulders, chest, and down my back. They are SO GROSS. This, however, is likely partly thanks to my stress level as well. In fact, a decent amount of my symptoms could be related to our current situation, and the last month or so, but I can’t know anything for sure. I’m sure both aspects of our life play a role.

To compare a few other little facts, baby’s heart rate has always been around 150 bpm, and my uterus is measuring pretty much exactly to date. My bump is really quite small still, as in you might not notice it if you weren’t looking directly for it, so I’m guessing I’m carrying a bit further back. Those are really all of the details I know about this bean!!

The last thing I’ll put out there for the sake of guesses is my guess! I’m saying its a boy. That was my immediate thought the day I found out I was pregnant, and while I’ve felt a bit wishy washy about it recently, I’m sticking with it. I’m guessing a third blue baby.

I would LOVE for anyone and everyone to wager a guess, just for fun, because I will know TOMORROW already!!! How crazy is that?!?! I really really hope baby shows us the goods. Above all, I OF COURSE hope baby’s bill of health is clean as a whistle, but there is less of a game there, which is why I’m focusing my post more on the gender. I know the higher goal is health and wellness. Eek! I can’t wait!!!

So guess already!!! What do you think we’re having? What will baby four turn out to be?!