I mentioned on Facebook earlier today that Laela woke up with Brady at 4:50am. In normal conditions, if she wakes in the night, she kind of whines and talks a bit before falling back to sleep. No problem. However, with it being light out so much sooner, she was wide awake in no time. Before Brady left for the day, he brought a bottle into our room so I could feed Laela. Once she had a full tummy, she chatted for probably twenty minutes before falling back to sleep. Thanks to this random wake up call, the three of us remaining at home slept until around 9:00. It isn’t the kind of morning I hope for every day, but I didn’t mind the extra hour or two.
I won’t lie. I went into today with a pretty horrible attitude. Yesterday evening was quite awful for me, and this morning, I felt like I really needed to get away from my kids. I adore my children, don’t get me wrong. Maybe some of you are judging me, and thats ok, but I’m confident that the majority of parents out there have time when they just need a break. Unfortunately, this is not the month for me to get a break. We are busy pretty much every single day and we’re either all together, or I’m home with the kids alone. With those thoughts going through my head, plus the early morning, plus all the tears and poop, I just wasn’t up for today.
But as usual, I felt waaay better just shortly after I got up and got moving. I got myself a particularly strong coffee, washed my hair for the first time in who knows how long (as in I genuinely don’t know how long…), and put on a bit of makeup. Just a bit. I ate a good sized lunch and just tried to run with the day.
Laela’s whole schedule is thrown off for the day, regarding eating and sleeping times. I don’t care too much about schedules, but Dekker has us in a fairly rigid routine, haha! Plus, with the order we tend to run our day, the kids can nap together. Not today! I tried to just get over the whole thing and just rock the day as it comes. Laela won’t get the exact amount of milk she always gets, but she’ll get more probably, so who cares? She took her first nap much later than usual, so I was pretty positive the afternoon would be a stretch.
Yet I’m writing in the afternoon 🙂 Over nap time. Because somehow, they’re both napping right now! In the SAME ROOM! I”m so thrilled that its working out! I took a risk and put Laela down with Dekker, because it was definitely time for him to nap, but pretty early for her. But she talked a little, and then fell asleep. *shrugs* I’m sure not going to try and explain it, but I’m certainly thankful for it!
Again, this post sounded more complainy than I wanted. I’m just trying to be transparent in saying that I really felt that I needed to NOT be with my kids, and the day has turned around. However, with the strength of those feelings, I do think its something I’ll need to do at some point in the near future. Just taking a day away or something. But we did great this morning and afternoon!
Think of us this evening! Those are our rocky hours of the day lately, and I’d love for the day to finish better than yesterday 🙂