Today was definitely a mixed bag of feelings!! Yet I can boil it down and see it was a wonderful day, which is always a positive thing, and something I’m very grateful for.

Brady and I woke up a bit early, and decided to enjoy breakfast and coffee in bed before getting the kids up. This is always a good kick off 🙂 The kids ate breakfast on time, and got into the clothes I had pulled for them. There were a few attitudes, and it seemed like church might be a bit rocky, but thats not all too unfamiliar, and we rolled with it.

Turns out we were RIGHT, and the little boys were completely bananas all through church. I thought childrens church was over for summer, and was taken by surprise when the kids ages 4-7 were dismissed to the basement for their own church! Half the kids were left to juggle, but they were the trickier ones 😉 We worked at it and finally gave up and Brady took them home. The church was SO hot today, and the little boys were already fighty and frustrated, so Brady took them home and got them dressed into tshirts, while grabbing some for the rest of us as well. I stayed at church so the big kids could finish out childrens church. It was so nice and quiet for that last chunk of church. I was also really happy to sit with a friend who I don’t see too terribly often! Community is SUCH a huge part of making it to church for me <3

I texted Brady during the final song so he’d come back to church for us, and gathered Dekker and Laela to meet him outside. By then, the wind had picked up and we enjoyed the breeze on the sidewalk while we waited for our bus. It came, and off we went to my parents.

The first order of business was getting Dekker fed and back out the door to a birthday party for 1:00. He was SO amped! By the time I got him dropped off and I made it back home, the little boys were down for their naps. The house was so nice and quiet, and we spent a lot of time discussing plans we all had for the rest of the year. They talked bathroom renos in all the specifics, and asked Brady for some advice and directions to move in. I made a few small decisions about the baby party coming up and crossed a few things off of my ever-dwindling list, which felt wonderful. It was all casual and low pressure, but it felt solidly productive! Every single time something gets crossed off that list, I feel better and better!

A couple of hours after dropping Dekker off, I went back for him, and was greeted by one sweaty beast of a boy, beaming with joy from having such a good time with his friends!

I brought him home, and shortly thereafter, the little boys got up. Chaos ensued, as one would expect, and energy levels were high and loud! They all played hard, and then enjoyed a delicious supper of cinnamon buns and fruit salad. Yum yum yum!!! I ate my body weight in those cinnamon rolls. It was a great end to the day!

Now, kids are tucked away and my bathtub is calling my name. I can’t deny that thing.

Tomorrow will be a quieter home day, I believe. Nothing too crazy on the books 🙂 Maybe I’ll even cross a few more things off my list! Wish me luck!! Hopefully I remember to set my alarm this time….

Its an odd day, because I have a lot of things I’m excited to share with you guys, but just about all of it needs to wait. They need to wait until the next series post, or just next week in general, or just down the line. Some of the things feel a bit repetitive, but I’m amped about them, so I’d like to share them again. But maybe thats weird? I don’t know. My brain is buzzing but there isn’t much to share just yet!

Something I can tell you is that we got Brady his Father’s Day gift today! Its a week and a day early, but thats perfectly acceptable, according to him! We FINALLY got this man a barbecue!!! Rather than him having a surprise gift, I told him a while ago that I wanted him to get a barbecue for Father’s Day so he could begin his search for exactly what he wanted. Being that our life is as busy as it is, he hasn’t poured too terribly much work into researching, and we decided just yesterday to spend this morning going to a handful of different stores, weighing our options, and finding a good, simple, biggish grill for our family. We did a tiny bit of digging online to see what was out there, read some reviews, and picked a route of where to go and in what order.

The kids were amped to go out and run errands, so besides one ridiculous meltdown from Laela based around her apparent need to wear Solly’s shorts and not her own, we had a pretty smooth morning.

Brady and I both are bad for buying the first thing we see that we like, so we made a point to NOT do that, and to hit a good handful of stores. Once we had seen what was out there, we lunched and chatted and finally laughed at ourselves as we headed back to the first store and purchased the first barbecue that we had liked. It was just the obvious winner.

So. Awkward. Brady was SO excited to set his grill up, but he opted instead to go run the carpet cleaner over our living room rug once more before bringing the thing back upstairs. So I have no picture for you! Sorry, guys! But, I can tell you the basics.

We bought a four burner grill, with a side burner, and a little cabinet underneath to hold the propane tank. Its stainless steal, pretty, with rose gold accents, so you know I also love it! Haha! Seriously though, of everything we saw that was even remotely close to our price range, this was the very best! Brady is psyched to get his grilling game on, and I’m psyched to participate in eating everything he grills.

Post-barbecue, we hit Superstore and Costco for food. We also (sadly) dropped off the guitar that Brady had rented from Long & McQuade for the last two months. We used it for our little “gig” the other day, we’ve used it in church, and he has really really enjoyed it! Maybe down the road, we’ll be able to foot the bill for a guitar like that, but not today, anyway. So he said an efficient, mournful goodbye and that was that. Hopefully the barbecue helps with the sting…

We’re keeping these little dears inside on such a hot, sticky day, and they’re even getting some tv into them, which weirdly happens very little these days! I never meant to phase tv out, but its kind of happened by accident?? Anyway, they’re all solidly entertained little zombies at the moment, Brady is washing that living room carpet, and I’m ready to be done blogging and find a position to sit in that allows me to breathe. Thats a luxury these days.

Have a lovely evening, friends, whether you’re in the sun or the A/C!!

Dekker had his second ever track and field day at school today! It was more in depth than last year, which makes sense. I imagine it’ll be more and more that way every year, or at least for a couple of years. As will likely be the case for every school event, I sadly can’t post many pictures, because there are just so many other kids in the background, and its obviously not up to me whether or not their pictures are allowed online. So, you’ll get a few shots of my kiddos, but thats it. Lucky for you, my phone was taking AMAZING pictures today, and they just look gorgeous!!

I am SO grateful that both Brady and my mom were able to make it out this year, because I could make it to my appointment this afternoon, my mom could stay with the nappers, and Brady could take Laela to the afternoon events. We had someone for everything! It felt a bit helter skelter, and we only have one kid in school this year! Its going to get tricky in the years to come, thats for sure!!

Dekker went through each event happily, unconcerned about where he placed or how anyone else did. With our last name being near the beginning of the alphabet, he has to go first for almost everything, which was really too bad last year, because he was so nervous. This year, he just went for it! We missed videos of a lot of his first runs at things, because he’d just go for it!

While the little boys napped, Brady took Laela to Dekker’s afternoon stuff.

The very last event was relays, and while it was on his schedule, we learned towards the end of the afternoon, the grade one class doesn’t do the relays. They’re welcome to go home early, or they could play outside for a bit and then go in and watch some videos. We opted to let him stay at school and play. I got back from my appointment in time to go get himself. And WOW, was he tired! Not grouchy, but super wiped out from his day! The teachers in his class had to kind of bring him “back” out of wherever he had zonked out to, and off we went.

The last picture of our sleepy little champion…

The dirt and condiments on his face, his sunscreen-slicked hair, and his tired smile read as a perfect day! Now wish us luck for the evening! Everyone is solidly overtired, even the nappers, and my body is pretty sore. Should be interesting, but all worth it for the busy day that was had.

Great job, Dekker!!! You did AWESOME! I’m SO proud of you!

Pregnant or not, sometimes figuring out what your body wants or needs is tricky. Answers are not always easy to come by, and leaves us wondering or, in my case, overthinking.

Last night, I thought I might be in early labour.

I spent from about 10:30pm-4:30am in pain, with lots of cramping and tightening. I dozed in and out as contractions seemed to come and go, but any and every time I woke up, I was in quite a bit of pain. On top of contractions, I swear my pelvis was the loosest its ever been. Every time I even shifted, it crunched in and out of place. SO painful! I didn’t want to overreact, wake the house, and head to the hospital, so I tried to figure it out on my own.

None of the pain even started until I lay down, which put a point in the “real contractions” column for me. Usually braxton hicks contractions calm themselves down with rest.

Nothing I did even slowed them. I get a lot more braxton hicks contractions when I have to pee, so every single time I lulled last night, I got up to pee. Didn’t make a difference. They just kept coming. Again, point for real contractions.

The pain wasn’t super bad. Like I said, I did doze and sleep bits here and there. I could walk through them and could’ve talked through them. Yet, my labours are odd, and its not unheard of for me to feel just vaguely uncomfortable right up to transition where the bomb drops. Sounded like labour to me.

My one hangup was that only the bottom half of my uterus seemed to be hardening. Maybe this isn’t all that strange, but it was new to me. In full blown labour, I remember less of how much it hurt (because of my weird labours) and more about how high up my stomach would turn to stone, and how it cut my breath short. That was not the case this time around. So, point for braxton hicks?

I woke up around 4:30 to what might have been my last cramp/contraction of the night. They haven’t returned. Painless braxton hicks are still in full force, but nothing like last night. I’m relieved, but also pretty interested in what happened last night. I have a prenatal tomorrow but I happen to know my family doctor is away tomorrow, so my student doctor will be overseen by another doctor. I’d SO much prefer to talk to Dr. Guselle about this, so I called her office first thing this morning, and it turns out she’s been out all week, today included. So, I wait for tomorrow.

In the meantime, here are my thoughts.

1. Maybe I got a little lick of labour! Ok, fair enough. Thanks for staying in there, little girl!
2. Maybe my body was super overtired from the day and the day before. Both were busy, productive days! Yesterday alone, we got car seats moved around in the van, including the infant seat!!! I got her cradle wiped down and ready for her. I got some dresser drawers reorganized in our room and hauled some garbage away. I planned a TON for the lake. Sorry, I’ll go into more detail on another day, but I did a lot yesterday. Maybe my body was legitimately just over it, and wanted to give me a (literal and figurative) wakeup call.
3. Maybe she dropped?? Yesterday was far more uncomfortable of a day than usual, very very low down. She seemed really shifty and unsettled, as if trying to get into place, maybe. So maaaybe my body was just making room and adjusting to her possibly having dropped lower.
4. Maybe this will be my life for the next 3.5 weeks…. I SUPER hope not!

It was a pretty off-putting night, I wont lie. It made me very nervous. I knew, if I called Health Line, they’d instruct me to go straight to the hospital. However, having a working husband and four young kids complicates that pretty significantly. Also the fact that I’ve never once went into labour on my own, and never early, leads me to think I won’t drop this baby anytime soon. Anything can happen, I know this, but I’m glad I stayed home and just toughed it out.

I’ll be spending the majority of today on my butt, accomplishing little to nothing productive, trying to rest my body. A hot soak tonight will hopefully do the trick and relax my big ole uterus for the night so I can be fresh in the morning! I can’t miss Dekker’s track and field day!!!

In many cases, sleeping until just before 8:00 would be an excellent night! Dekker used to sleep until noon most every day, and in turn, I was SO spoiled with sleeping in for the first couple of years of his life. Then, when he was two years and one month old, his sister was born, and from the very beginning of her life, it was clear that even her newborn self did not need as much sleep as his toddler self did. Thus began Hailey actually having to wake up at normal times in the morning. (Fun fact! Dekker and Laela are 25 months apart, and Solly and Bambina will be the same gap!) This system of sleeping in, or letting some of the kids sleep in to a degree, was glorious! However, school wrecked that for us.

SCHOOL!!!! Gah!

This morning, I woke up feeling SO nicely rested! The temperature in our room was nice, the darkening curtains were letting in just enough light to wake me up slowly, and I hadn’t had any leg spasms overnight, therefore no residual aches from them. I felt good. Until I checked the time. It was 7:54. And of course, its a school day. For reference, we always aim to leave around 8:25.

All the squishy, slow, morning vibes were out the window as I bolted out of bed to go throw some clothes on. For some reason, yesterday, I laid clothes out for today. I never ever do that. Ever. But thank goodness I did, because I was dressed in seconds and racing down to the kids rooms.

I went into Dekker and Rowan’s room first. They were both super cute, still in bed, in good moods. I explained to them what had happened, apologized that we’d have to rush this morning, and told them how this morning would look different. Both boys were on board, so I quickly pulled some clothes out for Dekker and he started getting dressed while I snagged Laela from the bathroom and told her the same stuff. Solly was talking a bit in his crib, but was totally happy, so I left him be for the time being.

I made Dekker’s lunch while he finished getting dressed, and when he came for breakfast, we improvised. We scrapped cereal for a granola bar, which he was completely thrilled about. He threw back a cup of milk, some yogurt, and his vitamins. The other kids wandered over, and also got their vitamins.

Oh shoot! The other kids!

I finished making Dekker’s lunch and retrieved Solly. He stunk. I went to change his diaper.

Shoot! Rowan needs a diaper change, too!

Two little poopers were refreshed and changed into new pants because theirs were just perpetually stinky.

When I came back out into the kitchen, Dekker had finished his breakfast. We had less than ten minutes before we usually leave. But the biggest part was over. Breakfast takes this group forever to eat, but the younger ones were totally willing to wait until we got home, which helped a LOT. Dekker hit the bathroom after he ate, to pee and brush his teeth. While he did that, Laela and Rowan set the breakfast table in preparation for our return.

Dekker was ready to go! Except that his hair was nuts, so we fixed that.

Then Dekker was ready to go, but he had a yogurt moustache. He laughed at himself and fixed that, too.

Into the entrance we all went to get our shoes on! The usual chaos ensues, but its the chaos that I actually secretly enjoy – when EVERYONE wants to get everyone’s shoes for them, and they fight because they ALL want to get their own shoes. Today, though, everyone seemed on point and listened as their siblings shrieked about which footwear they wanted that day. Laela chose her most complicated sandals, but assured me she’s close the door behind her and come in a minute. Yay for independence!

Dekker ran ahead to the van, I walked with the little boys, and Laela came seconds later. Two kids buckled themselves in, I buckled in the other two, and got myself into the drivers seat.

Took a deep breath. Checked the time.

We were literally only TWO MINUTES behind the time that we usually leave the house! Not late at all!

We drove Dekker to school, checked the mail, and came back home. Everyone was still in good shape. They put their shoes away and headed right to the table. Cereal and milk were poured, prayers were said, and eating began. No one missed a beat. It seemed like I was really the only one that took a hit this morning. But seriously, forget my delicious wake up and restful night. I could fall asleep this very moment, thanks only to that ridiculous half hour.

Coffee is not helping…..

So many of you have said to me over time that you feel like you know Jerilee, just based on reading posts. I like to think the vibe is pretty accurate 😉 Today is Jerilee’s birthday! Its s significant one *cough* 30 *cough* and I’m sure she’d vastly prefer that I gloss over it, buuuuut she probably also knows that I won’t, and she’ll still be friends with me. Let’s make that first one the list! (This list has been compiled by myself, my husband, my mom, and my kids, aka Jerilee’s biggest fans!)

1. Nothing even comes between she and I for very long before all is right with the world again. We do disagree from time to time, though not too often, and it never gets too awkward for very long.
2. Jerilee’s sense of humor is wonderfully dry and sarcastic. It has some good shock value thrown in there, also, complete wiiiiith…
3. Her beautiful laugh! 😂
4. She is a wonderful listener, even if the subject isn’t something she directly relates to or would normally need to know about. She makes the speaker feel valuable.
5. I’m trying not to make the whole thing about this one, but I LOVE that she loves my kids so well! 💖 She’ll play hide and seek, help Dekker with his homework, and will read and play games on the floor with them for longer than I even do!
6. Jerilee is trustworthy with secrets! Its possible she’s known this baby’s name long before anyone else! 🤫
7. She keeps us fuddy duddies in the loop with what the cool kids are saying 😉 Brady even says “totes” now, haha!
8. When Jerilee is in a bad mood or has had a rough day, she still manages to pull it together to be around people. To be clear, she’s MORE than allowed to be grumpy with us, and doesn’t sugarcoat it, but she has a nice way of still being super lovely to be around, even when she’s sad. What a wonderful quality!
9. Once upon a time, years ago, I was pregnant with Rowan, and we couldn’t find his heartbeat at an appointment. I had to wait TWO DAYS before I could get checked, and in those days, Jerilee brought me a party. 🎉 She brought my favorite soup, freshly made, a cake, hats, and something to do, and she distracted me for the entire day in between appointments. It. Was. Awesome. THAT is what friends are for!
10. She supports my unreasonable obsession with pineapples even though she is deathly allergic to them.
11. She is someone you can visit with, or be quiet with. Both are equally comfortable and enjoyable.
12. She has great taste in music! I think we agree on almost all of it!
13. Jerilee sees needs, and fulfills them. When we moved to our home two years ago, once everyone was done for the day, she went to the kitchen and shifted things off countertops and chairs, and got the room actually solidly useable, rather than just littered with boxes that would likely have been there for the next several days. She just knew how much easier that would make life.
14. She makes sacrifices for those around her, all the time. For instance, she’s skipping an important event in order to make it to the baby party, and thats only ONE example.
15. Of ALL the salespeople in the world, she is one of the few that is NOT pushy and overpowering! This is an amazing quality when it comes to sales, I find. She is the girl to go to!
16. I love her bangs!!
17. She encourages those around her and brings them value. I know I’ve felt it, and I’ve watched my kids puff up when she compliments their great pictures, abilities, etc.
18. Road trips are the BEST with Jerilee! She rolls with the punches if plans change, but is reliable when they don’t.
19. She is an involved friend and auntie to my kids. She makes the drive our way for birthdays, Christmas concerts, whatever she can get to. Even if they’re lame and disorganized. Last year, when Laela turned 4, we went and played at the playground. That was the “event.” And she came, just to be present! It was WONDERFUL.
20. Jerilee is ferociously strong, and can handle a LOT. But, on the days that she can’t, she will let herself be vulnerable, and I’m so thrilled to be her safe place to fall 🤗
21. I really appreciate that she will go outside of her comfort zone to bless her friends. She even braved the hospital and came to visit me when I was waiting for Jamin to be born. Anything could’ve happened in those hours, we both knew it, and she was up for the task! It was such a blessing to have some normalcy, and some laughs with my best friend, while I went through something super hard.
22. She is one of the few humans on earth who appreciate eating tuna on a regular basis. 🐟
23. Solly loves to scale his Aunty Jerry like a building and wrestle her 🤼
24. I love her itty bitty princess sneeze 🤧
25. Jerilee has wonderful taste in shoes, but poor judgement on when to bring which shoes where 😉
26. Laela LOVES that Aunty always has videos of her puppy videos on her phone 🐶🐶
27. Rowan says he loves sharing his stuffed toys with Aunty, very likely because she always lovingly accepts them. 🐻🦊🦊
28. Dekker loves that she reads stories very clearly, lol!
29. We all love Jerilee’s gentle spirit.
30. Laela keeps telling me she likes doing all kinds of things with Jerilee that they’ve never actually done together, so I’m taking that to mean that Laela loves having Jerilee in our lives, and hopes to have her around for much, much longer.

I know my dear Jerilee, my best friend, has not been eagerly anticipating this birthday, but I am thrilled and honoured to have known her for this second half of her life. Fifteen years have been great, and I hope there are many, many more. In talking with Dekker about birthdays today, he commented that, when he turns 100, he will be SO STRONG. I love that he associates aging with strength rather than weakness, and I agree 100%. Jerilee, girl, you are STRONGER than you were a year ago, and I am PROUD of where you are in your life, what you’re doing, and who you have become! I hope you keep me around to see how you keep growing and changing, because I’ve so enjoyed it thus far. Anyone who is a friend of yours is a lucky one.

I am SO lucky!! 💞

One. Month. Left. I can’t even believe it!! We’ll be aiming to have our baby in the very first few days of July, give or take, meaning the countdown is ON! This past weekend was the biggest thing we were committed to before Bambina’s arrival, and now that its done, I think time is going to absolutely whip by!! There is no shortage of things to do around here before she comes, but its starting to get done 🙂 The nesting bug has hit hard, and Brady and I have been hard at work accomplishing next to nothing off our list, but all kinds of other things, haha! She won’t care either way, right? Right. Whew!

Size Comparison: A “bunch” of carrots. Thats technical, haha! I appreciated the comparison to a small kids backpack, also. The internet says baby is 18” tall and 5.25 lbs. I can’t see inside of myself, but I’m willing to bet she’s bigger. I’ve been thinking small for a while, but recently, I’m thinking she’s going to be another big one. I already feel noticeably overfull, which I really noticed with Solly, and while he was technically lighter than Dekker was, I’d argue that he was my biggest. I guess we shall see!

Appointments: I have my next prenatal on Friday, and they will be weekly from there on out, which really says something! Once you get into the weekly appointments, you know you’re RIGHT at the end! Eek! I am, however, less looking forward to the test coming this week. This is the week of the test to check for Group B Strep. If you’ve had a baby, you know this is a pretty standard test, no big deal, but its definitely a swab of your bum hole, which I could do without 🤷 Not my favourite thing, but its got to get done, so I’ll roll with it! Besides that, I don’t have too much to talk about. Some apprehension, but as I seem to say every week, I think I’m just going to have that until there is a baby safe in my arms.

How am I feeling emotionally: My emotions are working in extremes these days. I am beyond psyched that the time is drawing nearer and nearer where we will finally hold our baby. Friends, family, and my doctors have all assured me that, even if I went into labour today, our baby would be nice and strong and all would be well. But I admit that the other side of my emotions aren’t afraid of going into labour early. They’re afraid of my precious child dying with no warning, and our being left empty handed once again, with another child to grieve and miss and wonder about. I don’t know what I’d do. I’m terrified of that happening, truth be told. But on the opposite side, I know the chance of that happening is slim, and I’ve successfully brought children home before, and I hope very much to do it again! Just a lot of swirling thoughts, thats all.

How am I feeling physically: My body continues to hold up decently well, considering the stage of pregnancy I’m in. I’m not sleeping very well these days, but thats been a theme for a while now. Since I’ve been nesting so hard, some of my aches and pains are worse than when I’m not doing as much, but thats not shocking. I think the only really notable change is my legs. I guess you could say I have leg cramps, except for the fact that I never notice they’re cramping until I’m mostly asleep, stretch my legs, and they go into crazy spasms. That’ll wake you up, let me tell you! My natural stretch is to point my toes down, and recently, when I do that, my calves go into spasm, and I cannot move my feet. My feet and calves burn like crazy, and I basically am just stuck trying not to cry out in pain for a minute or two until they settle. I’m learning that they’re worse and more frequent if I don’t get evening soaks for a couple days in a row, and Brady massages my legs once in a while now, too, which seems to be making a huge difference. Live and learn, I suppose!

Wish Lish/Purchases: I bought a dress for the baby party this week!! Don’t worry, its not a fancy party or anything. I’m just going to be so freshly postpartum, and I wanted to have something a little bit fresh that fit my middle ground body, if that makes sense. So I’m happy about that 🙂 I don’t have much left to buy, so perhaps this category is about to get boring. Sorry in advance if it does!

Pictures: The bumpity bump! Or should I call it the lumpity bump? Both are accurate. My size changes so significantly each week, it seems. Agreed?

Last week was the first time I was asked if I was having twins 😳 Sooooo that was a thing. I laughed, don’t worry, but in case more people are actually wondering, there is only one in their. I would be THRILLED to have twins, no joke at all, but there’s only one cooking in there this time! Its ok, though. She’s at least three kids worth of “awesome.” At least.

How are the kids feeling: Yesterday, we did a TON of things around the house, and one of those things was moving Bambina’s clothes into place. Her sleepers and blankets are staying up in our room, where she is staying for the first chunk of her life. Her hanging stuff is going in the HUGE closet in Dekker and Rowan’s room, which tends to be the place where everyone gets ready for the day together, and winds down before bed together. Her little bottoms and extras go in the dresser in the same room. Dekker was SO THRILLED when he opened his closet and saw all of her little girly things in there! I think Bambina’s entry into our family is going to be so smooth. Not perfect, of course, and there are always unexpected things that will come along, but Dekker has always been our one who struggles harder with change, and is a bit standoffish of the baby. We never push him too hard with it, and he comes around quickly, as he is SO loving and sensitive naturally! But this time around, I anticipate nothing but love and instant attachment to her!

Getting to know the baby: For some reason, speculating about our beautiful daughter feels ballsy and vulnerable these days. I like to think she’ll be a content little sweetheart who will just fit the bill perfectly for our family. It feels scary to dream too specifically, though. I’m not sure. Now that we spent so much time in the last few days actually preparing for her, I think I’m just irrationally worried that she won’t come after all. If she does, she is going to be one CELEBRATED birth, let me tell you!!! She’ll know how to party, straight out of the proverbial gate!

The BEST part of being pregnant: This baby hasn’t been super hiccuppy like other babies I’ve had, and I’ll admit that I’ve missed it. Some people find baby hiccups annoying, and thats completely fine! To each their own! I love them, though 🙂 They’re so small and consistent and some guaranteed movement for a few minutes, at least. It just feels like a gentle poke, but its so humanizing. I love them. The other morning, I woke up a little bit before Brady, and as I took my time lulling awake, the baby got the hiccups. I was laying still, with my hand on her, enjoying feeling her hiccups, when Brady rolled over and lulled juuuuust enough for me to coax his hand onto my tummy before he fell back to sleep. I lay still for a nice long while, feeling my baby hiccupping, with my husband held her. It was glorious. These are some of the best moments. Sigh. ☺

Favourite thing: BLANKETS!!!!!

My mom and I chose fabric together a while back now, and my mom spent this week pouring over her sewing machine, making Bambina her beautiful little receiving blankets! They are all perfect. I don’t have one I like more than the others, to be honest. They just feel like they’re SO “her,” if that makes any sense. They are exactly right, all soft and sweet and pretty. They are EASILY my favourite thing this week! Hands down!!

I’m SO excited for June to play out, and I hope and pray I can finish it out strong, without letting my anxiety and nerves get in the way of all the other fun stuff! School wrapping up, track and field day, a handful of appointments, Jerilee’s birthday, the list goes on! I hope to add in a date night with Brady and maybe a pedicure towards the end of the month 😉 Its always hard to prioritize the fun stuff, but I think it will be worth it! Now let’s just see if I can fit it all in! Wish me luck, guys! And welcome to JUNE! Our last month without a new baby in hand!

Two years ago, on this day, June 3rd, we went out on our first outing as a family of 6. Solly was three days old. The reason for our outing?

We picked up the keys to our brand new house!!! It was SUCH an exciting day! I remember crying a lot, haha! I was so overcome with emotion at that point. We moved in the very next day, thanks to a HUGE group of willing, loving friends!! I will never forget that time of life!

Last year, on June 3rd, we spent the morning at the towns parade, and spent the evening with my parents, celebrating Solly’s birthday. According to the blog, I spent the afternoon napping, as I was feeling decently sick that day, as well as the day before. As memory serves, I had gotten my positive pregnancy test not even two weeks before then. I remember being quite anxious about it all, considering we had lost Theo earlier that year, and it had taken a few months to conceive again. So I was feeling quite nervous and excited and sick and tired and hormonal and ALL the things. Also nervous about other things, as our little band played its first “gig” the very next day! There was a lot going on one year ago! Like the year before, there was a LOT of emotion!

Now, this year, June 3rd. We are in FULL nesting mode! Well, I guess I’m the only one nesting, but my loving husband is happily on board to join me, and is working hard alongside me, doing way more stairs and lifting and general running while I made decisions, organized, purged, and – lets be real – made a mess. Laundry has been buzzing since breakfast, we’ve organized a bunch of boxes that made their way inside during our garage purge a while back, and threw away a TON of stuff that I was storing in the storage closet that we really don’t need to keep. I brought the hanging baby clothes into the boys big closet. We borrowed the carpet cleaner from my parents in hopes of cleaning our living room carpet and seeing how much further we get in the coming weeks. Its been a BIG day of getting stuff done, and there is more coming! The laundry continues to wash. Lots of things need organizing and tidying. I found five or six fridgesmart Tupperware containers that I’m SO excited to wash and LOAD with veggies so everything lasts and gets eaten and nothing goes to waste. The kids were scratching at the doors to get out this morning, so we promised them a bit of outside time this afternoon. I think Brady is going to clean the van with them, and maybe even install the bucket seat. I know, its SO early for that, but if he’s already in there, pulling seats out and vacuuming, he may as well, right? Eek! Stuff is getting DONE!

There is no shortage of stuff to get done around here, but I’m thoroughly enjoying it! It feels great to actually be prepping things for summer, and for our new baby to come home. Not that she’ll notice or care, but I will 🙂 Even Dekker has the bug, and spent the last chunk of playtime before lunch going through his nightstand, and purging out the things he wasn’t attached to anymore. I love watching him make judgement calls and deciding whats important and what isn’t. He’s so grown up! They all are 🙂 And they’re all amazing! I’m so smitten.

This weekend was our towns annual celebration of itself, basically. There was a parade in the morning, activities all afternoon, and there are still fireworks to come tonight.

We went to the parade in the morning and stocked up on candy, as per usual. Also “as per usual,” a freezie leaked in our candy bag and I’m tempted to just throw the whole thing out rather than wiping down each individually wrapped piece of candy. We shall see. We got home, ate lunch, and put our prematurely grouchy kids down for a nap. Brady and I also took a bit of a rest.

In the mid-afternoon, my parents showed up and hung with the kids while Brady and I loaded up our instruments into Carrie’s truck, and the three of us headed to the location of our local car show. There was a trailer set up for us to stand on, and the rest of our setup was being assembled. We worked with two sound guys to set up the rest of the “stage,” and to get our instruments up and running. When it got to the sound check, it was time for the volunteers to enjoy some supper and a sit down before the work began, so we played a bit for them and got some claps and encouragement. It was fun!!

We had a quick supper break before it was actually time to start, and I’ve got to say, their pulled pork on a bun was SO delicious! SO much better than mine, and pulled pork is pretty straight forward! It was super duper yummy 🙂 Carrie’s family arrived shortly before we started, and my parents were there soon after with our kids. We had a very cute little front row cheering section!

Guys, we had SO much fun up there, on stage, pretending to be a real band! We were definitely imperfect bu we had a blast, and our mistakes didn’t matter. Nothing we couldn’t come back from and laugh about. Just human error stuff 😉 Not too ominous. We played two sets with a short break in between, and lots of people really lovingly encouraged us with positive feedback and an invite to come back next year 🙂 It was such a great way to roll our afternoon into our evening. The kids ate pulled pork, too, as well as coleslaw and chips. They were happy and fed, and only started breaking down in the last few songs.

Sadly, the breakdowns continued after we got home, and they are already tucked in bed, wiped out from the day’s activities. It seems like they didn’t do too much, but that crazy wind really takes it out of you, and unfortunately, they’ve been kind of off their game since they first got up in the morning. Not their best day, but Brady and I had a really good day, anyway 🙂 It can’t always be perfect for everyone!

Same time next year, guys, if you missed it this year! One gig a year makes you a real band, right?

Just at our house? Cool.

Very recently, as in maybe in the last week or so, Rowan is getting brave and mischievous, and likes to get up from bed and leave his room multiple times for unimportant reasons. I know this is considered pretty normal, but its not especially normal around here. Unless they really need something, like to use the bathroom or because they’re sick, they stay put. But Ro has been testing those limits recently 😉 Little punk. Its almost as though he’s three…

Yesterday, he was out of his bed very early on, multiple times. It lost its novelty pretty early for us, but he eventually cuddled in and called it a night. Until the wee hours of the morning.

I woke with a start at 3:45am to the sound of running in my house. I sat up in bed and, of course, saw a figure in my doorway. Not at all horrifying. I saw the hair and knew it was him.

“What are you doing out of bed? Whats wrong?”

And this is what I get…

“Oh, hey guys. Uh, my blanket is tangled…”

So let’s have some real talk for a minute. Brady and I were both furious. Of all ridiculous things, he had woken us (and we soon found out, most of the other kids) because he was playing in his bed and couldn’t straighten his blanket out on his own. So when he announced his issue, Brady and I just stared at him for a few seconds. Brady heaved a sigh and said he’d go help him, and walked him down.

The next hour or two was spent trying to get the two boys to shut up and fall back to sleep. I was pretty pissed, because I’m already not sleeping well, plus I woke up with reflux, of all frustrating, gross things. But eventually the kids fell back to sleep, as did Brady and I shortly thereafter.

Needless to say, its been an iffy day at best. Dekker has been very easily upset today, crying multiple times before going to school and now since getting home. He is SO overdone. And Rowan is a big ball of arguments and attitude. I can’t say I feel all that different than they do. Grrrrr…

Hopefully tomorrow is a MUCH better day! Local folks (local folkal?) you know its our big weekend around here! There is a parade in the morning, and I heard the car show not only has pork on a bun for supper, but also live music! Hmmm… I wonder who could be playing?? Probably worth checking out!