We are at the lake!!! I couldn’t be happier!

After a bit of a tearful ride thanks to my two little backseat drivers, we arrived around noon. We couldn’t get into our room until 3:00, so we played on the beach, blew bubbles, and drove aimlessly while the kids napped. When we got to our room finally, I felt refreshed immediately. We have a HUGE condo! It had a big entrance with a full kitchen and a living room with futon, two puffy chairs, and a tv. Then upstairs, there are two bedrooms and a full bathroom. The whole place is clean and welcoming and just exactly where I want to be. Of course, I would love it if Brady were along, but I think he and I need to miss each other for a bit. Don’t you think, love? It’ll be good. And my mom and I neeeeed a holiday. I’m so happy we’re here!

We ordered in big chunky salads for supper so we can justify snacking this evening. Apart from forgetting their blankets and Dekker’s pillow, the kids fell asleep almost immediately, without issue. Soon, there will be some bad food and a movie, and I just can’t wait.

I’ve come to some realizations recently that I’ll talk more about soon, but being here is just warm and fuzzy to me. I feel more at home here than I do in my house. No, not being without Brady. He isn’t my problem one bit <3 I just feel a different comfort here than I do in my house in my town. This is clearer air somehow. This is where I’ve needed to be the past two years.

The lake. I love the lake.

Danishes and sticky buns for breakfast tomorrow!

My mom, the kids, and I are laking it up starting tomorrow! Brady and I started packing earlier this evening but at about 7:30 we realized that we should take a break and play with the kids, since they’ll be away from their daddy until Wednesday evening. So we hauled ourselves downstairs and played toys and ball and Laela crawled all over the place (I can’t believe its happening!!!) and got into all the stuff she shouldn’t, and we just got a good fill of them. But then it was 8:00, so everyone went upstairs for diaper changes, jammies, cuddles, and nighttime. Laela’s just working on her bottle, and then we’ll be back to full packing mode!

I’ve laid out all of my clothes, and the kids clothes. I still have to pack toiletries, shoes, electronics, toys, and food. I think thats it, but I’ll have to check. Just looking at my bed covered in clothing, I’m questioning whether or not I might be wildly overpacking. But rather have extra than not enough, right? You never know about the weather, and what activities you’ll take part in along the way. So the kids have waaay too many clothes. We’ll be there for two full days, and I’m bringing denim shorts, jeans, lulu capris, hoochy shorts, and sweats. For two days!!! Overkill, perhaps. But you never know!

As long as I remember a baby monitor and a fan, I think we’ll be in good shape. Anyone jealous of our weekday lake trip? I’m sooo excited to finally have a holiday!!!

Brady was a doll and let me really sleep in today. We woke up to the kids shortly before 9:00 and Brady told me to keep sleeping. I woke up around 10:00, which was crazy, because a) I never sleep that late! and b) I had places to go today! I hung out with the fam for a little bit but eventually got up and ready for the day. Dekker was sad when I left because he wanted to come too, but it was a day of grocery shopping, running to several different places, and really not a good day for him to come.

I listened to my music all the way to the city and hit up Costco first. For anyone interested, they have their yummy fuzzy sleepers in again! Not lots of colors or designs, but I got a really pretty pink one with foxes for Laela and, believe it or not, a blue wolf one for Dekker! They go up to 5T! Dekker never wears sleepers anymore, but I thought it would be sooo cozy for winter! So I got him a 4T, since he’s in 3T right now. Besides that, I bought a few staple things, and a couple cans of formula. If any of you see that on sale anytime soon, please tell me! We try to stock up when it goes on uber sale but apparently under estimated last time. No one wants to buy full price if they don’t have to, right?

I went to Walmart next for some snacks for next week, baby wash, and bubbles. I’ve never hung around the bakery area much, but I bought some salted caramel chocolate chip cookies that I am SUPER excited to taste tonight! Sooo delicious.

Starbucks was next, where I grabbed a venti (go big or go home) passion tea lemonade. I could drink that stuff all day. My tip to you is ask for light ice. Otherwise they tend to add waaay too much and its over way too fast. So I got that, and drove pretty much across the street to KFC. Don’t judge me for this, I know fast food isn’t good for anyone, but I wanted popcorn chicken, and it was my day away. Sue me. The guy working the drive thru came over the speaker just laughing uncontrollably. He could barely take my order, but I loved it 🙂 Two men greeted me at the window, full of smiles. I liked seeing people having fun at their job. One of them told me he loved my hairstyle, which I really appreciated. Its been a hard one for me to rock, but he was actually really encouraging, and said it suited my style. Nice guys. All of that, and my “small” order of chicken seemed pretty humungous. I liked them.

I went to Bath and Body Works after that to visit Jerilee on their locations first birthday!!! I bought a candle and lotion and left. It was a shorty visit, but I had time and no one to haul with me, so why not?!

I did some quick Superstore shopping before I hit up Value Village. I know it seems silly, but I love going through that store at my leisure, and just finding what I find. Sadly, for my first time ever, I did not find one thing 🙁 I found my ideal slouchy fall/winter boots, two sizes too big. I found a great little winter jacket for Laela, six months too small. I went in specifically to find a pair of shorts. I’m going to a golf day with Bradys work next week, and I need to dress like a golfer. All of my shorts are denim with an unfinished hem. So I need something to wear! My first trip to the change room was every womans “merp merp” experience. I had thought too much of myself and had chosen every pair in a size too small. So that sucked. I got over it, put my own shorts back on, and headed back to the racks to find some bigger shorts. I picked three new pairs to try on. And they all sucked. TIGHT around the waist and balloony in the legs. I gave up and left. I’m not sure I’ve ever left Value Village empty handed. Its probably not a bad thing. Except that I really do need shorts.

On my drive home, I discovered that I am indeed old. I was sooo tired. It was maybe 3pm and I was wiped out. I drove quickly but with my music turned way down. Often my mind runs wild in those quiet moments, and thats usually when my car cries occur. But I didn’t even think. I just drove. About three minutes from home, I saw a motorcycle accident on the side of the road and that was just about enough for me.

I’ve spent the evening with my beautifully family, eating supper, playing toys, watching Overhaulin’, and having baths. Actually, Brady was the golden boy again and bathed both kids. Dekker did better than he has in a while, and I got to be the lucky one to give him a special treat at the end. We don’t really operate much of a reward system around here, as Dekker responds incredibly to verbal praise and celebration, but today he got a chocolate egg. Rather, gold. As I unwrapped it, I was telling him that he had done sooo well not screaming and trusting daddy, and that I thought he would like a special treat. He didn’t hear a word. He was memorized by it, unable to control those little hands just wanting it sooo bad! It was adorable, and he loved the candy. I love him.

Kids are clean, tucked in, and definitely not asleep at all. Moments ago, we looked at the monitor and Dekker was sitting up, while Laela was kneeling in the corner of her crib playing with the Christmas lights. Those kids are trouble. But at least they’re happy and tucked away. Time for a snack and a bath. New bubble bath!!!

I’m not sure how many green thumbs read my blog, but I think I have a couple, so I thought I would post some updates on our garden! I went out in my jammie pants and rubber boots (because I’m cool like that) and took some pictures of everything.

Our carrots look great and lush so far! We’ve never had especially successful carrots. The one year that they grew well-ish, they had zero flavor. No good. What we learned: The tape seeds don’t produce the flavor or the real thing!

Our cucumbers are probably the lamest thing in our garden. Not sure if they’ll produce or not.

Beans!!! They’re flowering and getting little mini beans on them already! Can’t wait for fresh green bean casserole!!!

Corn and sunflowers are growing sooo well! They also took a bit of a beating with all of the wind last night, but as far as I can tell, no stalks are broken.

Potatoes!!! These are beautiful and budding and I’m so looking forward to fresh potatoes 🙂

My one and only peony plant even produced, but the two flowers got the crap kicked out of them by the storm last night. Plus, my only beef with peonies is the amount of ants they bring into my house 🙁 Bummer. So I kind of missed them this year, but there’s always next year. I should plant more…

The other big new progress in our house is that little Miss Laela is ready to move!

Time to move her crib down again!

Yesterday we saw her first tiny little shuffle towards a toy, and got really excited. Well, all has changed. She crawls. Not perfectly, of course. She falls over onto her head a lot, and spends more time on her hands and feet instead of hands and knees. But hey, polar bears do it and they’re cute! I couldn’t get it on video, but this is something anyway.

She’s pretty proud of herself, and Dekker is actually excited by it! I once lived in fear of the day that she would crawl, and touch him, and he would cry and cry. But now, he will lay on the floor with his face in her face, begging her to touch him head. Its going to be sooo great! For those of you who are expecting your first, don’t let people tell you it will be miserable when your kids can move around on their own! It is incredible and exciting and frankly, I think it helps with the kids independence to a degree! Sure, you’ll potentially have to baby proof a bit more, but you’ll learn that quick. Its sooo exciting to see this happening, and knowing how soon after walking will come!

Thats the end for tonight. Brady and I are in dire need of a date night, so we’re going to go make popcorn and drinks and find  movie to cuddle up and watch downstairs. Hope you all have a great Friday night!

The kids and I spent the day with my mom, playing on swings and enjoying some good company. Once we finally dragged them inside for lunch, we offered Dekker grilled cheese (aka GOLD) for lunch. He said “uuuh…no. Detter wants ham.” Whose kid is this?! By some miracle, my mom had ham in the fridge, so while she and I devoured grilled cheese and fruit and veggies and chips for lunch, Dekker ate ham. And fruit and veggies and chips as well. Whats lunch without all the goodies?? Laela ate blueberries, bread, cheese, and watermelon!!

Because the kids slept in way longer than usual (unmoving at 8:30am!) and were revved up from being in a new environment, I napped them both at 2:00. Its not an uncommon time at all, but Laela hadn’t napped at all in the morning. She slept until after 4:15 and then got up and ate and played a bit. But she was pretty touchy and bushed. Dekker started to wake up right around supper time, so when he got up, we opted to put Laela back down for a shorty nap. But she cried and cried. So that didn’t happen. You know when you’re overtired that you can’t sleep? Ya, she does too.

After supper (Laela tried pancakes for her first time!) we played toys, practiced music for church, and enjoyed some incredible thunder and lightening! It shook that house, and some of them went on and on, rattling my legs against the chair. The initial crash would startle Dekker, but he would recover pretty quickly, and either run to one of us, smiling away, or go to a window to check everything out. It was pouring and dark and loud and exciting. He seemed to actually enjoy the new weather!

The drive home was kind of nerve wracking, to be honest. I’m not scared of storms, but driving through them is a bit different. However, Dekker was a total peach for the drive. He asked for a toy right off the bat, and while I was madly digging for it in the diaper bag, he goes “Oh! I find it!” and he holds it up for me to see. After that, all he wanted was some music on, and he was content to watch the train driving along the highway, listen to the rain, and see the lightening. Laela slept. Luckily, she’s still pretty grumpy so I’m thinking she’ll go down well. And it is sooo time!

Let’s just pray that we all keep power tonight, and even better, than this rain somehow helps rid us of all this smoke!

I felt way better today than yesterday, and I’m pretty sure it really helped to have Jerilee out visiting. The last time I saw her was on Canada Day, and that was just to watch our kids while Brady and I went out on a date, so we didn’t even hang out! This was a much needed day, and I was just too distracted to be sick!

We caught up on everything, and Dekker convinced his aunty to play ball with him a couple of times. He was sad to go for nap time, yet he wasn’t upset when Laela wailed her face off and slept for less than twenty minutes. I gave up and went in to get her. She was all cuddled up, laying on her side, chewing a blanket, but bawling. Her morning nap was shorter than usual too. She was sooo tired, but crying consistently. So I fed her and she drank her milk, but it didn’t comfort her for long. We tried to nap her while we ate supper, and it lasted maybe ten minutes. She was so sad for most of the day, and I’m not sure why. I’m thinking teeth, but I don’t see any white or bumps, so who knows.

Laela did finally join us at the supper table and had her first mashed potato experience. And she loved it!! I know people say not to start with fruit, but I did with both. Dekker eats great, and Laela loves potatoes and broccoli and all kinds of things. I’m really not worried.

After supper was a bit whiny too, but we stayed upstairs and played music and the kids perked up a bit, but it was definitely an early bedtime kind of day. Laela will be down in a few minutes when she’s done drinking, and Deks is already tucked away. Hopefully there are no tearful outbursts in the next half hour, or through the night. I think we all need a full nights sleep!

It was a bit of an iffy day at home for the three of us. I slept much better than last night, which helped, but both kids were just whining up a storm. Dekker can get upset over little things, but I can usually talk him off the ledge pretty quick. But today, I’d calmed him down and he’d be fine, and the next second he’d whip a toy at the wall or something crazy like that. Not like him. Laela normally plays beautifully on her own. Sitting, laying down, sitting, laying down, and rolling from destination to destination, getting her hands on all the toys she shouldn’t. But today, I’d set her down on the floor, and she would look up at me with this brutal look of abandonment, and bawl like her world was ending.

I can handle two fussy kids just fine on a normal day, but today, I felt sick too. Maybe we all ate something funny? Was there a full moon? I don’t know, but I was pretty useless as well. It was probably the first day in many many days that I napped while they napped. I only got maybe ten minutes before one of those lovely recorded messages called my house saying I won points or a vacation or some other crap, but then I probably got another twenty after. And Laela woke up pretty quick after that. When I ducked in to get her, Dekker usually watches me, but doesn’t get up. I’ll say goodnight and he’ll respond back with the same. But today, he sat straight up and said “Hi mommy” instead. I asked if he wanted to sleep a bit more, and he considered it for a second. “Uuuh…no. No sint you.” And that was that.

Poor Brady came home to his three grumpy bears and handled it well. He made he and Dekker eggs and toast (never fight-worthy) and some cheesy mashed potatoes for me. He played the kids guitar in the living room while I chatted with my mom on the phone, and we tucked everyone in a half hour early. I’m sooo looking forward to a soak and hopefully I can find a delicious snack that will sit nicely in my tummy.

I felt so backed up after yesterdays post. Through comments on here, or on Facebook, or in private messages, I was supported and encouraged by many of you. I feel incredibly supported, and like I could really put it all out there. Thanks guys. Thedailyhailey lives on 😉

I woke up at 4:15 this morning and didn’t fall back to sleep until maybe 6:30. Not my best night, but when I did wake up, it was to the sounds of my kids. I checked the monitor, and found them playing peekaboo through Laela’s crib bars. They played happily together, squealing away, while I dragged myself out of bed, put on some clothes, and clipped my hair back. Upon entering their room, I was greeted by Dekker’s cheery “Hiiiii guuuuuys” which is apparently something I say a lot. I changed them and asked how they slept. Dekker said Laela slept good but that he had dreams. I asked what about and he looked at me coyly before saying “Detter dreamed flosted flates!” So we had frosted flakes for breakfast 🙂

Laela is getting close and closer to crawling everyday, and I cannot WAIT for it to come to that! People love to say how bad things get once a baby can move around on their own, but I’m on my second one, and I know the relief that came from it, so you don’t have to say that stuff to me. I’m really anticipating it, and I know she is too.

The kids were a bit grumpier than usual, so they napped long and were a bit whiny when they were awake. I think we all felt a bit off or overtired today. Hopefully tomorrow is better.

 

Ok, so completely unrelated to anything, remember Dekkers second birthday? It was sooo much fun, but super casual. Just a large group of people sweating outside, eating ice cream. But we really loved it. Now, Dekker will turn three in like six weeks ish and I haven’t even thought about what to do!! His birthday is on August 21, and Laelas is on September 30. I was thinking of combining but the weather is less predictable in September right? What if we did ice cream again. Would that be fun? Or just the easy way out? It was just a Sunday afternoon thing that people came to after lunch. Does anyone have any opinion in the matter? Combining or not so much, same thing or totally different angle, etc. What would yoooooouuu do?? (Seriously, go reread that birthday posts, even just for the pictures. What a fabulous day!)

I wanted to take todays post to explain what happened at the end of the day yesterday. I had typed out my whole post and was in the process of loading the pictures. I had fifteen I wanted to post. I know, waaay too many, but my kids are that cute. Four of them loaded and the other eleven glitched. They said something on them about an error and they couldn’t be completed. I was kind of annoyed, as I had wasted quite a bit of time waiting for them to finish up, but c’est la vie. I figured it was all just overloaded so I selected two to reload. They glitched. Over and over again. I went to the page to try once again, and saw in small, light grey writing, text explaining that I had 0% of my space left.

I knew I would eventually run out of space. My blog was a completely free page until I put some money into it to purchase the domain name “thedailyhailey.” I was just very surprised that I received no warning. Granted, that fine print has probably been updating since I started blogging two years ago, but I didn’t know about. I mean, if I get lots of views in a short period of time, like for instance, when I put out Laela’s birth story and lots of you guys read it immediately, wordpress notified me that I was getting a high traffic of viewers. While its nice to know, its not really information I can do anything with. This would have been much more useful: “Hi Hailey! Just FYI, you only have 500MBs of space left. Might want to consider upgrading!” Something like that, right? But nope. I had to dig for it.

So being me, not the most tech savvy person alive, I went into my media page and started deleting pictures. I figured I’d make room. However, I had to go one by one, and it took forever. I deleted about thirty before googling how to go about this much quicker. As I’m sure lots of you have predicted, I quickly learned that the pictures I deleted are now gone off of my public posts forever. I cried. I was very upset in the moment, and still am, to be honest. BUT I am also thankful that I only deleted as many as I did. And I think I deleted pictures off of posts that I had already saved. So WHEW! But aaawww at the same time.

Once I found this out, I ran outside to Brady, blubbering about my lost photos and how I couldn’t even finish the post I was working on and what would I do?!?! Mildly irrational behaviour at best. He hugged me and let me have my moment. Then we talked about what it would cost to upgrade my space. I could go from my allotted 3 GBs to 10 GBs for $20, which isn’t bad. But in all honesty, I struggled with the purchase of the domain name, and now with the upgrade, because this blog doesn’t serve a real purpose. No one reads it to learn anything, or to be inspired, or to discover anything new. Its only purpose is basically so I can have a journal that somehow works better for me than writing on paper. Why do I have to pay for it?! Ugh.

I know, I was overthinking it, and $20 per year for several years worth of space isn’t unreasonable. But I felt so ripped off to not get any time to think about it before having to make the decision. Instead, I had to decide on the spot, or not post. So I bought into it, gave them their $20, and finished my post. I almost immediately received an email from wordpress showing me my purchase, and giving me a receipt. It was ended with “Thank you for using wordpress, a better way to blog.”

My ass, wordpress. My ass.

Be prepared for a potentially annoyingly long photo post. Would people be happier if the photos were smaller and side by side so you could go through them quicker? Or maybe the posts are slow to load when there are so many. I don’t know. Any issues out there?

I was pretty happy with how today played out, for the most part. Our morning was low key, as per usual. We played downstairs and watched a movie. Laela napped, and we drank coffee. Really laid back. When the little miss did wake up, we got her up and fed, and headed outside. We spent the next two hours photographing our kids playing with bubbles, trucks, tractors, the wagon, and checking out the garden.

I obviously don’t have pictures of everything, as I was covered in bubbles myself. But it was wonderful to get out and play in the sun. We brought the kids in at 2:00 for a nap, and they were out right away. A little bit of fresh air sure does the body good! However, the littlest goober slept for one hour and that was it. She usually wakes up and plays and talks in her crib for a bit, but she rolled for only a minute or two before she burst into tears. I went to get her and she cuddled in bed with me and watched baking videos on YouTube for a bit.

We had perogies and wings for supper, which Dekker slept through. Once he woke up, Brady sat at the table with the kids and I baked cupcakes. Ok, no, it wasn’t a big accomplishment, as baking usually is for me. They were just from a cake mix. BUT!, I figured I could either make shortcut cupcakes, or no cupcakes, and I think my husband will agree that box cupcakes are considerably tastier than no cupcakes. So I ended up with 19 slightly overfilled white cupcakes.

 

However, lucky me, they baked up beautifully! I iced them just basic buttercream as well, and in all honesty, they were pretty ugly, haha! Here’s the one pretty one 🙂

Again, there could be worse things than ugly icing on a cupcake. No cupcake.

What did turn out to be worse than ugly cupcakes was bathing the kids afterwards. Laela doesn’t like baths much, but she’s a lot easier to maneuver. Brady has had the job of bathing Dekker for quite a while, and now I remember why. I am at such a loss. I’ll spare you the details, but when I finally dragged Dekker out of that bathroom, we were both soaked head to toe, furious with each other, and in tears or very, very close. I have no idea what the next bath will look like, but we had a very serious talk afterwards and some of it seemed to sit well anyway. One thing that was different this time, though, was that in between his shrieks, the few times I calmed him for those few seconds, he would say “Detter scared.” He has never so clearly verbalized that to me, so that was a great step! But I can’t get out of him what part he’s so scared of, or why. I suppose that will come out more as his communication skills improve.

After baths, we played in the living room and Brady played some guitar. It was relaxed and quiet and that was good. The kids are now tucked away, and Bradys outside trying to finish up mowing the yard. He’ll either finish, or run out of gas and leave a weird, ugly patch in the lawn. We’ll know soon!

 

*** Sigh. WordPress just threw me for a loop! $20 later, I can finally finish this post!